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I have no intention of reviving it. Probably there would be a comeback in future but for now it will be inactive.

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Internship updates

Sigh...

It is a super duper stressful frustrated horrible vegetable experience last week. To put it simply it is a nightmare where you be meeting the same monster again and again.

Monday was the worst day of all. Most of you probably can guess what happen from my previous blog post. Since we already kena shoot full blast on Monday, the following days seems like a draggy depressing upsetting week.

Anyway I'm glad that uneventful week was over and looking forward to this week though i have a feeling it wouldn't be that great after all. At least all the stupid shits from last week has been cleared out completely. I guess they also know there's not much time to waste on banning ideas.

Speaking of which, we wouldn't be having any shooting this month. Moreover i overheard that we only have one shooting somewhere around the middle of August. Another big project would commerce at the beginning of September when my internship ends.

6 more weeeks to go. Weeee!!! It should be quite fast right?

Right.

today is a good day for rants

p/s : this post is not directed to anyone else. I am merely complaining/stating/letting go something from my point of view.

Read it at your own risk.


Yeap. It is a good day. There is NO other day more suitable than today.

Know why?

Cause i'..., sorry not I, it's WE. WE have been shoot kau kau by some idiotic person who don't know that he is constantly CONTRADICTING and EATING his words. Plus, there's another person who is also constantly pouring fuel to the fire. Dont you lurrve how helpful the other idiot seems to be?

The three of us looks like we have been slapped by some strange unknown alien that just happen to land on earth from mars. Oh, MY BAD, aliens wont be that bad la. At least you know they will either abduct you or they will just go away or they will just be there.

That is my point. At the very least, you KNOW what the hell is going on. And you can do something about it.

But noooooooooo....

This did not happen in my situation. One word being said. And the two idiots expects you to know everything. Hello? We cant read minds mind you. If we can, we would have manipulate yours instead xp.

What frustrated me the most is, the two idiots cant simply make up their minds. First they give you the topic. They want this and that. Okay. Didnt mentioned how to do it so i do based on my own knowledge la duh~!

First stage analysis : Apparently what we did, was not what they want. What they want are something not too direct , something obvious, something common, something that would happen in your daily lives.

Special intructions : dont really need complicated slides. Just a few lines would do.

Result : my work terpesong. okay, Fine. redo.

Second stage analysis : Apparently what we did was in reference to what they said, but is still wrong because they feel that it is too vague, not obvious, not direct, too common, too small cases. (Hello??? isnt that what we did for first time?)

special instructions : must write the whole storyline in the slide. synopsis. etc

result : have to redo.

We were like wtf. First you said no this no that. After one U-turn, they suddenly said want this want that. Is this some kind of game? Are we in a middle of a game? Roll the dice and you move a few steps forward. Take a community chest card. Move back 3 steps. Go to jail. Is it like that? Is that how you control things?

I dont think it's very nice of you to say that "dunno whether you understand this language or not". SORRY lor, I dont know much about your kind of language. Eating and changing words here and there. I have to say it's very difficult to catch up and no one would be able to either(unless very proffesional people larr) . Since it's always changing, might as well give up and learn a new language where the rest of the world would know rather than only a couple of people understands.

Now i know and understands why my colleagues, wanted to quite ASAP.

hahahahah.

Yeah, i know we are not superior than you in terms of knowledge, experience, skills, judgement, talents. But at least can you show us the proper way of doing it? Redoing things are not fun, mind you. And it's not that we did cincai work. We did tried our best. And we merely doing things according to what you all said previously. And yet it is all wrong.

I guess we are not on the same page since we do not communicated in the same language(which sometimes i am glad) . I think i'm starting to feel grateful that i am living in a different world from you. I mean seriously.

However, until the time is up. I would still fulfill my role.

htc touch viva

hey there,

it's been a long while ever since i got a new phone *ahem* htc touch viva. Was supposed to blog about it one or two months back. Well....i guess it's kinda hard to keep track when there's so many things going on in your head.

oops. Enough babbling.

It's been two months now and the phone still works okay for me i guess?

However, i still couldnt get used to the touch screeen system and text messaging stuff. I know. There's a variety of keyboards to choose from. However, there are also a lot of times when i ter-press a few buttons altogether. Perhaps i'm not touching it the right way though. Texting messages have been really slow due to that. And it's been happening so many times that i finally gave up and use the stylus instead.

well i guess i prefer manually type sms better.

Crossing the lines

image credited to www.flikr.com

2/7/1988 is significant day for me. Know why?

Cause is my birthday (aduh, so muka tebal). But at least it’s over and I’m not that paiseh to say it. Hohohohoho.

Sorry for the slow updates. I’ve been waiting for all the celebrations to finish so that I can sum up everything in one post because I think it will be extremely cheong hei and tak habis habis if I blog each event individually.

So now moving on. This year’s celebration was extremely significant. It represent that I have crossed the lines, hence the blog title. No, I don’t exactly feel like an adult yet. I still feeling like a kid and acting like a kid (what? don’t give me that look la).

Anyway, had 3 wonderful celebrations with my family and friends. It’s been ages since I had been celebrating with my family. Normally it was just simple patting and wishes and a bit of cash. Nyehehe. Very happy.

Finally get to meet half of sot k gang and also vendetta’s group. Wah….it’s been so long. Nobody changed much though. I’m sure we will be a lil different the next time we meet up.

That’s all for the bday post!

Thank you all for the dinners, prezzies and wishes.

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Internship updates :

Another week done. We’ve been working for more than a month! Weeeeeeeee!!! Well if you see it that way, it is fast, but when you are in office with fewer things to do, you feel like you are waiting for something that seems to crawl towards you with a speed of 1kbs/3 hours and in the end never came, you would know that a day passes by slowly.

Internship has been slow these days. No current projects going on. And I’m more or less done with my proposals. Just left a little touch up will do.

Workload has been kind of slow. That’s not what is draining me though (it shall be reveal later on, I promise!)

Till then!!

Life updates

I just watch transformers yesterday!!!! It was sooooooo awesome!!!

Yeah, i know i am suppose to blog about it yesterday. But due to some twisted memory, i have forgotten all about it and happen to remember only when i was sitting in office finding random things to do. (=_=)

The film was good. It's has been so long since i watched a decent movie. The action was good, the storyline was okay and somehow i think it got a little draggy towards the end.

That's not it. It seems like good movies tend to come when we are at our busiest time. You have ice age coming in, then the oh-so-delayed harry potter movie which ffk us last year. Cirque Du freak seems to have disappear from the coming soon list. Sigh...see what i meant?

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Last week, went to the boss's house to shoot a TV commercial. Saw a white wii!!!!

Cheh, it's not as big as i imagine it to be also. Just a small small console only. But seeing it face to face, just make my hands itch. I decided! i'll certainly get one! But first i need to cari sponsor dulu, the thing is quite the pricey.

And i got my paycheck today!!!! Now i understand the feeling of waiting for the month to end and seeing the cheque landing on your hands. After 1 more year, it'll be permanent as i would be graduating soon. Before that happens, let's enjoy enjoy enjoy to the fullest first =)

Internship weekly dose (5th week)

Fuh~

Another slow week ended. There's nothing much to blog about really for now (most of the things cant be mentioned here. For the sake of safety i shall seal it in my pile of memories for the moment) .

Just that another week had passed and this coming week marks the end of june whicccccchhhhh is kinda an happy occasion. Know why?

End of the month is where pay checks come in! Woohooooo!!!

That's it for internship. Yeah, i know. Posts about internship is getting shorter week by week. What to do? Working is suppose to be a routine thing. lol.

Kay, enough of that now seriously. I noticed that i've been blogging about internship only for the past few weeks which is kinda unhealthy.

So now, yes now, finally i have some adventures to share besides some daily boring workplace stories. Okay, okay straight to the point.

I finally met with kang's bf after they have been dating for like one year? =.=

Ahem, i know i'm kinda slow. But hey...who cares???

Anyway, we went to pavilion today, because kang's bf has never been there before so we brought him there. Had a wonderful meal of sushi and jco donuts for tea time. I got a *cough* fantastic *cough surprise ( in which i would only reveal later) thanks to the horny twins ( you know who you are)

There's one conversation that disturbs me greatly :

Kxx : booboo, have you grown fat?

booboo :........ ( izzit? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!) er...oh yeah...i guess...i've....been sitting a lot in the office lately.

Kxx : No wonder. Your face looks a bit round-ish now.

booboo : $%$@%£$@$$%@%$%@%$£$!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!! T.T

i think it's time to go for a diet. Yeah i must.

Internship weekly dose (4th week)

Is it just me or blogger has been acting weird lately? Somehow whenever i click on the create post button, it directs me to a blank page. I have to go through edit post and click on the new post then only this "create post" thingy pop up.

Sigh...of all the times i dont feel like updating, nothing went wrong. When i feel like doing so, it didnt work out right. Darn it. Guess I'm a regular customer to this kinda luck.

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There you have it. Fourth week of internship. Gone like that.

I'm not going into details. Just a few highlights. This whole week has been pretty slow, in which clients occasionally coming up to our office and we are pretty freak out like a bunch of mice against a few big shot cats.

Things are way different from what i expected from a production house. I expected large number of crews, build in studios, modern and trendy kind of office, macs etc. I expect that we would have a small part in scriptwriting. That is what i initially hope for.

But anyway the exposure is good. It'll let us know that this will be the kind of working environment in future. And help us to be ready for it.

Overall everything is still okay i guess? There are ups and downs, but of course that would be inevitable. The good part is that we are allow to contribute ideas, in which i think is a great honour and opportunity.

The bosses brought us to tenji japanese buffet on Friday for lunch. I was wondering "what's the occasion?". No pre production currently. Check. Production is done at the meantime. Check. We arent really involve in post prod. Check. Company anniversary. Check. Eh. Uncheck. Got so early meh? Impossible.

Then the magic word is here " Nothing comes with a free meal"

Aha....

"Please take out your proposal and do a presentation"

I swear that my jaw just hit the ground. But i think, i think laa, i think quite okay, though i can feel words are like over everywhere.

Then i was asked to come up with a proper proposal ( the one i have is incomplete) together with kevin and peitsan.

Phew~

*wipe sweat*

Dont frightened me like that please. I cant do a spontaneous presentation. It'll kill me. Well...i think it already did.

Interlude

I'm feeling super duper happy now!!!!

Dont ask. Will let you know tomorrow =)

Internship weekly dose (3rd week)

I'm pretty sure that I'm not suppose to eat pancakes in my room after my mother had finished vacuumed the floor. That explains why i have half of my face buried in the plastic bag while eating just to be safe.

Oh well. Hopefully nothing comes out of it. If not, there would be an ant hill in my room and mum will go nuts.

Oh..there's goes my 3rd week of internship. See how time flies??? I could still vaguely remembered the feelings i have before my internship starts and now it's already coming to the fourth week!

Working was just fine. I screwed up a little here and there. As expected from myself. Luckily my colleagues are kind enough to not blame me. But that doesn't mean i don't feel guilty. But what can i do? Gotta make sure i don't screw up again lo.

We are no longer as busy as we first came in here. After 3 shootings everything just slows down. But that doesn't mean that we are outta jobs. We have more coming in which is why we were asked to brainstorm to come up with ideas or something.

Now, i'm starting to appreciate fridays and the weekends. I finally understand why my mum refuses to go out during weekends. I know why she wants to rest at home. Because during those five days, you've been so busy working your ass off that you do not have time for yourself. Most routine revolve around waking up, going work, coming back, rest. It's the same routine over and over again and that is provided if you do not have any homework.

Sigh...our office would be moving to cheras (connaught i think) soon where i dunno where i would be. Transportation would be a problem. Imagine the long distance travels, the traffics and everything together. It makes me tired just thinking about it.

Anyway, i hope everything still goes smoothly. I will need that kind of luck a lot in the future.

Internship weekly dose~!

There goes my 2nd week of internship.

Come to think about it, this whole week passed pretty quickly. I think it was probably due to the juggling between shooting and normal office days. Shooting pretty much takes up the whole day (that is if the you're lucky if it ends early).

We went shooting at two places, a 4 story bungalow in jalan cecawi and a 3 story bungalow in templer hills. I didnt take any pictures sadly. Will be uploading if i managed to get the pictures.

Shooting has been interesting and professionally done. There is no waiting and everything is pretty on time.

That's all for now. Actually got more things to write and i'm pretty sure you can guess it by now. Yeah, i'm lazy to go on.

xp

Internship weekly dose~!

Finally I'm done with my first week of internship! I still have another 3 months and a half to go =)

This first week has been pretty eventful. Nothing much happen during our first day. The assistant producer brought us to the editing room to take a look on things. When we are back in our main office, we are roughly brief on the current projects, system of the company and all other related stuff. There are currently two projects (TVCs) that are in their final pre-production stage and another one (informercial) is coming up some time next week too. There will be 3 shooting altogether in the following week.

Currently, most of our work revolve around paperwork as in helping out our colleagues by typing word documents, doing slides, ah...you know...those office work stuff.

Second day was much interesting than the first. Know why? The chosen costumes did not match the director's imagination, therefore have to change the costume. And there was a final pre production meeting with the client the next day. So...everything has to be done on that night itself. And there's a lot of things that are undone which is why we have to stay back and help out. Due to that we get to eat free pizza. Boss belanja. It was 4.30am when we finished up everything.

The next day, we were allowed to arrive a little later than the usual working time. We were told that we can arrive after lunch...but not nice la. So we came a lil earlier...just in case.

Then we have a second meeting to discuss on how the whole scene is suppose to shoot, what do the talents wear, which talents, what kind of hairstyle, props. That is already the second meeting for these projects. We had the first during our first day. We didnt know we are involve though...until they asked us to join them.

The following day, we had another interesting event going on which is casting. During this time, we have to take photos and video of the talents. That completed, we are to ask the talents to change in the require clothes and again take photos. The photos and videos are then to be stored in the computer for the director to select the most appropriate cast. The talents this time are all kids. Some cute cute 1, some shy shy but some...fuiyoh..got attitude one le. Attitude as in like those kind of celebrity style. Dont play play.

Yesterday was considered most relaxing day as there was nothing much to do. Ah yes, we had our third meeting for the week. Yup the 3rd meeting mind you.

Anyway...it was pretty fun la. The people are nice. They joke around and when it comes to work, they are all very serious. There are two colleagues who dont really eat. They can go on working long hours without eating. During this whole week i only saw them eating twice. The rest of the time they are just staring at the computer, answering calls and writing stuff. I really salute them.

And....... i just got my paycheck today! Well...i didnt expect my boss to pay me soooo soon. Or should i say i wasnt expecting my boss to pay me for this week of work. I was expecting the salary to come next month instead. Oh well...i'm happy! At least it's better than nothing.

My working time is suppose to be from 10 - 7pm. But currently this week, all of us have OTs. The time is juggle between 9-ish or 10-ish before we are allowed to go home. Currently we cant go home unless our work is done or our boss says so.

Next week we have three shooting altogether. The timing will be entirely different. I only hope i dont mess up and give trouble to others or be in their way.

*clasp hands and prays hard*

Cooking Attempts ^^

It has been what...five days since i had updated my blog. What i have been up to? Been gaming, eating and more eating? Yes, i know I'm will get fat faster like this. Well, better enjoy it then. Since i will have not much free time next week onwards =p

Hc was off on Wednesday. So she decided to make.....


Lamb chop! Finished with a touch of special mash potatoes ( potatoes, mustard, mayo, pepper,etc), baked tomatoes and green veggies (I dunno the English name for it though). The taste is good, but the texture is kinda tough. Sis says it would be a bit raw if she don't cook long enough. True though, mine was a bit pinkish, somewhere near the bone area. But overall it was good! Tee hee!

I like the mashed potatoes the most! It has a kind of sour, creamy taste with an extra touch of pepper. Soooooo Yummy!! *slurp*

Kuddos to Sc and Eugene!!

Hmmm...seeing all those mouth watering thingy kinda prompts me to cook too. lol. Guess what?
I have been learning how to cook these few days. I'm pretty surprised myself too. Normally i would just go around talking about it and ended up NOT doing anything at all.

Since i have 3 great chefs at home, might as well learn a bit and there. Let's see what i have done so far :




Crepe! It's a banana and Nutella crepe topped with Hershey's chocolate sauce. Go Google it if you don't know what is it.

First attempt was considered pretty failed. Though the appearance is a pretty shade of golden brownish, the texture was quite tough as i fried it for too long. It is suppose to be soft and chewy.

Second attempt was better, but it went out of shape when i tried to flip it (koyak-ed halfway through the frying =.= You are suppose to have a nice rounded shape like a roti canai, so that you can fold it nicely. oh well.)

I couldn't really get the shape right though, cause you have to pour the dough in the pan and move the pan a bit so the dough reached all sides of the pan. After a few more tries, i finally got it. Not perfect la of course. If I'm that genius, i can sign up for culinary arts already xp

Third attempt was finally better (at least there's successful one v^^v)

Of course couldnt have done it without the help of great chef, Sc.

Up next :




Fettuccine Carbonara! Cooked with mixed cream and Parmesan cheese, bacon, wild mushrooms, onions and finished with a touch of the green veggie above ( dunno what's the name for it).

It goes extremely well for this, i suppose? It is not as difficult as i think it would be. Of course like i said, i couldn't have done it without the help of great chef, Sc.

So that's all for now. Hopefully, i would be able to cook more stuff in future.

See ya (lol, sound like a tv cooking program =.=)

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Credits to Hc's facebook photos and sc and hc for editing the photos

Some things are meant to be forgotten

I let go a few things. And i was wondering why am i so foolish to hold onto something that is so negative? I bet there's some truth in the phrase "everyone would like to think themselves as the most pitiful person" and i think i fall under this phrase for several if not many times.

I think my resolve and motivation has been stronger before. There are a lot of things that i have missed.

Regret, is definitely not something that i wish to have. Even pain or suffering is even better than regret. Time may not wait. But time can heal sadness. But not for regret. It cant be undone, repair and start anew.

Thinking too much is a waste of time. Why not concentrate on the present and try live to the fullest?

Life is short.

Absence

Will be going back hometown later.

Internet connection is not very accessible so , if anyone sends any msg through email or leave any comments in the blog, I would less likely reply you.

Anyway, hope to see you soon.

Till then, happy holidays for those who still have holidays and good luck to those started internship early.

Hope everything goes well..

Byez~

"Sweet & Spicy"

When sweet and spicy potato chips are mentioned, one will automatically thinks of Thai flavours, extra hot, chilly and tomato. heh.

Wait till you see this......

Enjoy =)

Drop dead

The last time i had this freaking fear was when i was going for a mass media subject in which my coursework are terribly low. And i am feeling the same thing now. I read what i have ( hopefully it's enough) and hope it stays in my head.

I really hope that i would be able to answer the questions tomorrow or I'll be doomed with a C (that is if I'm lucky enough) or most probably be awarded with a D ( Noooooooo~!)

*sigh*

Last one

Phew~

Two papers are done. Needless to say, i screwed up both. It is one of those times, when you thought u have studied and prepared, then when you sit down and take a look at the question paper, you just have the urge to slam your face on the table. Yeap, that kind of feeling.

Hopefully, my answers are relevant and convincing enough for me to score As.

............

............

Okay, i shall not dream about it anymore.

Back to annoying IA~

sigh...the most troublesome paper of all....

End of the 3rd day of exam

Today's paper was.....

.......

.......

.......

( i leave that to your imagination as to how you want to interpret and imagine it)

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Just completed the collection for twilight books! RM 29 for eclipse and RM 34 for breaking dawn. Got it from an mph warehouse sale which is from 29 April to 3rd May.

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Finaaaally three papers are done! But i still have another 3 to go....

(=_=)

Quickly finish la, so i can plan ( actually now already planning xp) how to spend my limited holidays~

Countdown to holidays =)

Collages oh collages

I have a strong urge to create collages but i lack of pictures.

(=_=)

And i have to study because got exam tmr.

howhowhowhowhow?

Go back to study la duh!

End of another day

Yay!!!!!
I'm done with exams!!!!
And that is only the second paper......

(=_=)

I have another four more to go, one on this coming Saturday.
Anyway, today's exam is not as difficult as i expect it to be. Phew~ what a great relief!
Nevertheless, I'm am not that confident to assume everything i write is correct but at least i know i didn't screw up that badly this time ( yeah, i screw up a bit today...damn me and my carelessness).

I hope to finish exam fast. Am already thinking of what to do with my limited semester break. Hmmmm~

End of day

Yay!!!!
I'm done with exams!!!!
But that is only one paper........

(=_=)

The next paper starts on Wednesday and i know nothing of it. Okay la, not entirely nothing but about 20%?

I should be getting back to study sooon....but let me just relax for a while pweeease? I bet a little rest wont hurt much. Nyehehehe.

Top ten most popular doings during this study week

Ranging from the most frequent to the least frequent :

1. Sleeeeep (yessss, i sleep more than i study)
   
2. Eat
   
3. Walk around the house
4. Serious Studying
   
5. Accidentally fall asleep
6. Looking for snacks
7. Facebook-ing
8. Studying....but dreaming at the same time
9. Check blogs
10. Play PSP

Short film

Nah,

here are the links to our short film on youtube~

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

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credits to nigel for uploading it on youtube

Closed

This topic is official closed. I have read what you have said. I accepted your thoughts. I have said what i wanted to say.

With this, i mark this day as the official closing for that topic.

No more, should i care or should i bother to say something about that topic anymore.

To me, this day is the ending.

Chapter closed.

The Writing Spree

Yes...

I noticed it today...

that during this semester besides switching between blocks, i have been doing some serious heavy writing.

This semester is the paperwork semester i suppose. I have reports, reports, scripts, scripts and the list goes on.

Yes, i do love writing but not to that extend.

My latest records are writing an average of 15 pages in 3 hours. Even I, myself are surprised that i can crap that much. Luckily it's a story. Fortunately there's a inspiration. Of course i couldn't have done it alone. Thanks to my friends, i manage to crap that much.

And it's not only the script, other reports too, i couldn't possibly have make it without my team member's help and support.

Now that I'm free (well not really, finals are coming pretty soon +___+) okay..shhhhh...

Coming back to "Now that i'm free"...

Hmmm...i can resume writing my short stories. No writer's block please~!

New blogger

We told her to create a blog long ago.

She said she is too busy to write a blog.

We understand.

She told us that she commented on our blogs.

We told her to get one so that we can do the same.

Again, she said she do not have time to create one let alone to write in it.

We accept that.

We ask her whether will she create a blog.

She said maybe but do not know when.

We didn't ask her anymore after that.

Cause we know that she's very busy.

Then...

I got a msg from her.

xiaoxin says:
i blog

Welcome to the blogging world woman!!!

Unmotivated

It's not that i want to be that way...well how should i put this?

Don't get me wrong...i don't feel like giving up.

I want to do more...but the thing is...it's kinda hard to accept that you work hard and you only get so little in return. Or sometimes you don't get any at all.

Well...i think i kinda cari pasal la. Was being over confident with myself. Knowing that me myself is not that good but still wanna prove something...i become like this. padan muka kau kau.
If i'm alone in this mess, i should very well said i deserve it. But there are other ppl in this too and i feel so baddddd for pulling them down.

Next time, i shall do things the simple way.

Always K.I.S.S

Back to work.

Mum's plan to get extra chicken

It's the edible chicken mind you. Not that type of chicken...er...well you know what i meant.

Anyway, bacccckk to the topic, finally had the RM1 chicken from dragon-i. Mum had been talking bout that promotion for some time now. So we had decided to go tonight since we have 6 kaki.

According to the banner, the promotion stated that you can only buy the chicken if you have a minimum of 3 pax and above. But we have six people...so mum was saying....

Mum :

Why don't we split up? Make it 3 people each group so we can order another RM1 chicken. But we mustn't let them know that we come together. Why don't the first group go in first? Then the latter group will go in later? Then we can pretend we are some old friends or some relatives by waving to each other or go berchit chat for a while. In the end we will have 2 chicken.



Note :

Plan failed because we are not muka tebal enough to carry out this act. So in conclusion we only have one plate of chicken.

Bug off

Nooooo

i'm not down with a bug flu. I think i have been infected with a supposedly clumsy bug. You see, my second sister has been complaining that she seems to hit anything that stands in her way. So i was wondering whether did she passed that bug to me directly or indirectly?

I hit the door when it was open.

i stumbled into the weighing machine on my way to the kitchen.

My pants tersangkut at the drawer's handle. And i hit myself at the cabinet.

I accidentally knock the chair with my toe.

Even when i sit still, i still hit the table when i try to reach for the mouse.

(=_=)"""""

*looks around*

*brush imaginary clumsy bug off hands and legs*

Hare (はれ) kumori (くもり) Ame (あめ）

The weather these days have been quite temperamental, making changes according to its mood swings.

Sometimes the rain pours like never ending tears.
Sometimes the thunder and lightning are murderous.
Sometimes the clouds are too dominant, occupying most territories in the sky.
Sometimes the sun is too warm to be approachable.
Sometimes the weather just smiled during the day but shed tears during the night.

Sometimes the weather is just...just right and you felt like u really belong there.

Sora (そら）

A endless blue sky.

A flower.

A patch of soil.

A bee.

***

Once upon a time, when the flower was a small little bud, it used to look up at the sky and gave a very friendly cute smile. The sky was happy too as it has been watching over the flower ever since it was a small seed. The patch of soil that the flower was living on was feeling happy too. Just like the sky, the soil had been there long before this little flower was planted.

As seconds turn into minutes, minutes into hours, hours into days, days into weeks, the little flower finally bloomed to the fullest. The sky was extremely happy yet sad at the same time. The soil on the other hand was feeling proud.

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"How long has it been?" The sky wondered to itself. "When was the last time little flower smiled at me?"

The sky asked the same question to the soil but the soil hardly pay it any attention. The sky then ask the little flower aloud but was interrupted by the buzzing sound of little yellow bees. The sky wanted to protect the flower but couldn't do so as the distance was too great between them. To its horror, the little flower actually let the bee absorb its nectar. Worst still, the soil seem to support it as well.

The sky was undeniably upset.

Then an heavy thunderstorm came. The bee hid in the flower for safety, while the little flower remain vigilant to the soil. The soil returned the same gesture to the little flower. As the rain pours, the three of them look expectantly at the sky.

The sky was puzzled.

After the rain was over, the sky smiled at them. But they aren't being friendly. Instead of speaking nicely, they threw tantrums at the sky.

The sky was angry and hurt. But it couldn't do anything as it couldn't even reach them let alone comfort them. It couldn't control the sun nor it could make the rain disappear. It was just a sky. And now it cant even be itself?

Where is the logic?

Yes, the sky can watch over anything, everything at anytime or anywhere. But how much can one sky focus on? It cant be there because you simply wish for it. It cant be focusing on one thing when there are so many things under it.

The sky then looked at the flower, bee and soil. They are playing happily together.

The sky sighed. What is it going to do? What's there to change? After all its stereotypical job was to watch over everything.

As the sun comes out, the sky thought of an idea. If only it could blend according to the sun and the moon then it can be something different.

But what about the little flower and the soil?

The sky sighed again.

"But this is my life" the sky thought to itself. "But that is also my duty."

And so nowadays in the mornings, the sky tried to blend in with the enviroment with the help of the sun. In the morning, a shade of pink and purpleish sky can be seen. However, as the day slowly goes by, the sky changes to another colour accordingly.

The sky may not fully escape from its duty but at least its still have the freedom to do what it wishes and to be who it wants to be.

The End.

today ah

Last night had a sumptuous dinner at tenji with hc and fes, sc and eugene, evelyn and roy. So full of raw fish. Yum Yum.

Slept late last nite...

Woke up late today...

Had nasi lemak for breakfast and lunch

.........

.........

.........

And have been siting in front of my com doing work since i woke up

(=_=)

It's a holiday where i'm suppose to enjoy myself after streanous weeks of assignments and mid terms. Nevermind, if it's MY work, then i dont mind spending the whole day to finish it.

what i should not be doing is to.....

cover up some stupid part where that *beep* person *beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeep*

Cis!

Towards a clear blue sky

i guess you can call it an empty emotion

Detached.
Try to detach.
Void all emotions.
Embrace neutralism.
Live in the gray world
- a place where black and white are not separated

They didn't reject me.
They are kind enough to keep me there.
Should i say that I'm lucky?
Should i think that i am fortunate enough?
Did i betray anybody by accepting it in the first place?
She told me it was okay.
I felt her sincerity like she really meant it.
But to another, i don't feel anything from her. Probably she thinks that i shouldn't accept because that chance was meant to be theirs not mine.
And by doing so, i stole their rightful chance.

I know what it's like to be a burden.
I understand what it's like to be in a way.
I tasted what it's like to be not needed.
I do know what it's like to be ignored.
I know i shouldn't think like this.
I know i should wake up and think positively.
But do you think i want to think like that?
Do you think i want to compare myself all the time?
How would you feel if you are being compared from primary school till secondary school? Or even in tuition or curriculum activities? How would you feel if you're being reminded even when you do not want to listen to any of that?

i was wrong, i still am even now

i am wrong and i still am.
Without realizing it, i have already in the process of becoming who i hate.
I hope i can still stop these changes.
And become a whole new person within.
Last week make me realized what is wrong and what is still wrong.
Slowly, i know i can still make a difference.

ignorance is bliss

Memang. Now that i truly experienced it, it's really really true in some ways.
At least you be happier knowing nothing than having to know everything.




Enough said.

She and her

She and her.

Whenever i see them together, i feel like an outcast. Like I'm not allowed to step into their territory. Nor i can interfere with their relationship. So i pretend that i don't really care, pretend not knowing anything, pretend to be okay with it.

Cause what's the point of me having to know about all these things? Is not like they will share it with me. What they know of, i don't know. What i know of, they don't.

She.

I don't really know much about her. Because the gap between us is too great. By the time, i entered primary school, she was already in secondary school. By the time i entered secondary school she was already graduating. So in truth, i don't really know her that well. All i know that she cries easily.

Her.

Her gap is smaller compared to she. So therefore, i feel as thought i'm closer to her. Her grades are good and she always have a lot of friends. I bet she always finds me a nuisance because i always trouble her, getting her late to school or a function.

But she and her always get along well. As far as i see, there is no argument or slight disagreement between them. Even if there is, it is just like a joke between them. Whenever they are together they are laughter and smiling faces. Whenever i'm with them, i just didn't feel right. It was as though i am not meant to be there. They have a lot of friends that both of them knows but i know only a slightest bit of their friends. That is if i did follow them out though.

They can always make my mother laugh while i made her cry and stuff. They can always make her happy while i made her frown. They can always make the situation more cheerful and relaxed while i always made it tense.

During annual dinner, people will often ask them about medicine and health problems while i be just a decoration in that event.

Most people remembers their names, but they forgotten mine.

My mum said something to me which i believe she will never say it to them.

I don't deny that I'm envy, jealous and sometimes hates them because no matter what i do, i just cant be better than them. I'm trying to catch up with them but it seems like it's not possible at all. I'm angry and hate myself for being so forgettable. Can someone explain to me why is it always like that? Why am i like that?

oh shit, i'm losing it...

can someone help me please?

it's the same

It's the same
It's the same same thing
At first i thought is the generation gap.
Now i'm sure.
It's not about whether you are related by blood.
It's about who you are.
10 years ago...
I feel that I'm alone...
Now ten years later...
I feel pretty much the same.

it's gonna be a busy busy busy week

It's going to be super-duper-busy-until-i-will-actually-becomes-zombie. No doubt about it.

Haiya if only our shooting week is on week 8 then we don't have to be sandwiched in between midterms and deadlines.

Anyway will start shooting tomorrow and hopefully everything goes well.





Okay, don't give me that look, i know it's a super short post. But but but i don't have time already lah...have to continue with my assignments at the same time reading notes. Talk about multitasking...hmmmm....

I remember the days of summer
We were so close together
You were humming the songs of silence
Sweetly plucking the harp of wind

Every moment was sacred and mystic
We were near to the shore of eternity
The days are gone, and will never come back

You were a half of me...long time ago

Life can never be perfect without you
But I'm still on my way to the future
For I remember your sweet song in my mind

To the lost horizon, I'm calling your name
Again and again

Though the night is so dark
A new dawn is so close to me
Sun will come and shine on all seeds of hope
Bud and bloom...

I remember the days of winter
You were sitting beside me
All alone in the shuttered places
We were waiting for thawing day

Every moment was sacred and mystic
We were hoping the night was eternal
The days are gone, and so far away
I'm still singing your sweet song for long
Long windy nights...

Xenosaga II Movie Scene Soundtrack

workload list

1. screenplay writing (90% complete)
   
2. short film production ( shooting week haven start)
3. inter ad ( haven start)
4. multimedia broadcasting ( computer stuffs - wip, report - untouched)
5. crm second assignment (untouched)
6. media planning (wip)
7. story writing competition (wip)
8. 3 midterms to go

T.T

No rest day meh?

Sit and calm down

I need to sit down and stay calm. Noooo, I'm not physically moving around. But i guess my emotions can say that much. It's like a whirlpool in there plus with the additional thunder and lightning and of course boundless worries. I feel like i have a washing machine fixed inside of my body.

(=_=)

Nah, I'm not pacing around the house worrying bout my mid term tomorrow. In fact, I'm more anxious of my internship. Yeah, yeah i know. I've been speaking of this issue for almost 2 weeks now. Cant really help it though. It stays and it's really really persistent and consistent.

I guess it's about time that i control myself a bit. Been getting more and more depressed each day. Can you imagine of sending out emails for a few days but there is no replies? Or that you friend actually send later than you and managed to get it first? I been wondering whether's it's the face problem now.

Okay. Stop.

i'm not suppose to rant anymore on this topic. What i am suppose to do is to prepare for the worst ( hopefully i mean hopefully utar managed to turn out reliable). And i should focus those energy in finishing my current assignments and story. I have a story competition deadline to beat. I have assgmts deadline. I have mid terms. I have short film production.

But still, there's no harm in hoping for a miracle to happen. If i get it well i am extremely grateful, if i do not....well let's not get into that point. You dont want to know what i will become.

Seriously speaking, i dont feel like giving up. So let's keep my fingers cross and hopefully i would get it.

My latest target :

Is to be able to write about almost anything as in tvcs, movies, dramas, commercials, news and so on.

Of the torture of waiting

Man, i'm freaking out. I dont feel that well anymore ( not the "well" in health). I dont feel at ease but surprisingly i still can eat and sleep well.

Internship, internship, internship

I cant get this word out of my head!!! Argh!!!!

I thought about it when i'm eating, when i'm doing my assignments, when i'm showering even when i'm playing dota!

Seriously, I dont want utar send me to places i dont like.

I hope i get a good reply soon. After all as they said, good things are worth the wait right? Let just hope that it's true.

Or else i mati la.

Of insecurities and lack of confidence

How you ever wonder what's the difference between "you want to do it" and "what you can do"?

Recently, i been pondering of those kinda things. Don't ask me. I just don't know.

I'm worried.

I don't know what i am capable of seriously.

Communication wise. Not really good.

Graphics wise. Not good either.

Language. Average only.

Creativity. Depends on time and situation.

It all comes down to nothing?

Sigh~

Shall i participate or not?

hmmm.....

*ponders deeply*

Vday

Nah, i didnt celebrate. I just want to wish everyone a happy valentine =)

Also here is a special valentine dance performed by both calvin and hobbes :

enjoy =p

Sushi Trip

Well...went to mid valley today after class for the sake of sushi (suppose to do my assignments but oh well....) I didn't know at first because initially i thought my sisters are just going to Mv for hair dye and a little bit of shopping as well. Then my mother broke the news to me indirectly. She sort of invited me to the outing. That was when my eldest sister had a weird smile on her face.

Anyway, let's get back to the story, we are suppose to meet one of my eldest sister's friend for lunch. Kononnya on today she had to belanja a friend. Soooo...she might have to spend more for additional mouth i guess????

So we went to Yuzu Japanese restaurant @ the gardens. The atmosphere was pretty good. Nice furniture and service was excellent.

The food was quite good but we only ordered sushis...didnt really touch on the set meals as we all are feeling quite full. Anyway here are the pictures :

The 25 things you don't know (and perhaps should know) about me

I didn't get tag directly, but from the way jojo had put it, it sounded more like i was tagged indirectly. Anyway here goes :

1. I get annoyed at little things. And i mean really little things
2. I'm pretty hot tempered all the time.
3. I have shark phobia. Still have though.
   
4. I am so damn lazy in everything...to the point that i sometimes feel very lazy to eat.
5. I'm a greedy person especially in food...hiak hiak hiak...
6. I can be calm and good mood but if you step on my tail i could be pretty mean and sarcastic.
7. I have extreme mood swings.
   
8. I cursed a lot
9. I love cheese, chocolates, ice cream and most of all I'm in love with Japanese food. *hint hint*
10. I love Japanese songs, those musical soundtracks ( that's why I'm so outdated in Eng songs and such)
11. I'm an otaku.
12. I hypo-contradicting. A lot too.
13. I get distracted easily even during conversations.
14. I get bored of something quickly.
15. I love games ( video, computer, console) and technology (computer, gadgets)
    
16. I daydream a lot. Anytime of the day except when i'm sleeping..duh!
    
17. I dont really know how to dress up femininely. Most of the time, i will just go with what i feel comfortable with.
18. I'm fashion blind. Matching colours is okay. Matching fashion is @@.
19. I didnt like things to be too troublesome because i'll get lazy even before starting to do them ( yeah, i'm a spoil kid)
20. I prefer to bottle up things instead of just firing them away. Dont ask me why. I dont really know either.
21. I love my freedom, space and privacy a lot.
22. I love to write more than talking....probably because i dont really get on well with people..sometimes...
23. Complicated stuffs such as maths, marketing, strategy...i absolutely hate that. I prefer a more direct approach like language or common sense.
    
24. I like to pretend that i dont care...sometimes...
25. I love travelling and would like to stay somewhere else from malaysia in future.
    

Well that's all for my part. Now comes the tagging part. Should i tag anyone? Nah, i just leave it to you la. If you feel like doing after reading this post, then go ahead. If not, no matter =)

***

Happy valentine's day everyone!

Remember, you dont need to be in love in order to celebrate.

Ponders....

Okay, after that disastrous japanese post, i have decided to stick to English instead. You see, the point for writing japanese is to practice using it so that i can confidently post something confidential on this blog. Somehow it didnt work out, as my sisters has miraclously found their way to read it by translating with dunno what.

(=_=)

So the plan to write in japanese failed apparently. I shall say no more.

***

I'm seriously waiting for short film to finish. After that hopefully everything is being cleared out. But that have to see whether everything goes well or not right?

And before that, let me get through crm first.

T.T

ねがい

こんしゅうのどようびはバレンタインです。わたしもにじゅさいです。

わたしわしれたいですあいのきもち。

ことしのバレンタイン そしてきょねんのバレンタイン おなじですか？

わからない。

only time will tell

***

Note: cacat japanese

i wonder.....

It just me or my luck is always like this?

Why on earth do i always get chosen for the first week?

Speaking of which, it was the same for public speaking too right?

はあああああああ〜

A Simple Lesson

1. Lack of equipment
2. Not enough time
3. Unbalance group members
4. Utar has no choice

Seriously all these made me wonder, is this what we are paying for?

First there's a problem with lack of equipment. Isn't that another way of saying there are too many of us? We are also told that those who are taking broadcast journalism are going to use the equipments as well. Okay, that is a conflict but shouldn't we be given the priority first seeing that it is our major?

Noooooooo. The tutor and lecturer just have to force us to shoot on week 3 which is the CNY week simply because there arent many equipment+ not enough time + not enough editting machines.

I dont know about you. You will probably think that there is no other choice but to do this. I disagree. Can you imagine that we are paying so much but in the end they just said there's not enough equipment?

Not only that, even our short film project which initially was 14 members a group is forced to form at least 18/19 per group. We were told that we only have six cameras available not 8. 18/19 people in a group...how much can everyone learn when there's only one camera for each group?

It all comes to one final answer :

Utar has no choice after all.

Yeah right.

Variety posts

On that particular morning when tp came for her usual visits, we settled in Sun Wong for lunch. After the usual brunch, we decided to use the toilet in the restaurant as the one in pg block was particularly very wet and water was leaking from above.

That was when i was locked in the toilet.

Tried turning the knob for a few times but the latch doesn't seem to move in as you turn it. So wawa went and get a lady and she said that it was impossible that it cant be opened. And so she tried and failed apparently. Then another lady came in ( i was guessing, but dunno whether got or not la...cause i cant see what) with a key trying to open the lock.

I tried telling them again and again that it is not because of the lock but the latch. But somehow the more i talked the more times they tried to unlock it with the key.

(=_=)

And sooooo, i took a picture of the latch from the inside and bluetoothed to wawa. Then she showed it to them. Then they are only convinced it wasn't because of the lock but the latch. And finally they called one of their male colleagues to break down the door. After that, the lady who tried to unlock it previously, tried the knob again.

(=_=)

okay, nevermind. I'm only glad that i was out of the toilet.

***

images credited to wikipedia

Thoughts:

Both movies are pretty okay eventhough i feel that AWEL was a lot better in terms of humour and plotwise. I feel that both movies are not worth watching in cinemas and they don't really deserve a re-watch.

Actually i was hoping that wedding game would be much nicer than AWEL. But it turns out that AWEL is better than wedding game. If you ask me, i would say wedding game was sort of very predictable. If you want to know, just go watch it or ask *cough* somebody *cough* else. I don't want to have the honour of spoiling it for you unless i'm being very cheeky. hehe.

***

Awkward, Awkward, Awkward.

Enough said.

Sooner or later the truth will be reveal.

Cny - okay not so bad after all

Finally back from hometown last thursday and i was and still in cny mood. Cant blame me though, i need time to get into momentum. Even a car needs to get their engine warm up before being driven right? Similar concept and solid reasons not excuses mind you.

Previously, i was saying that cny feels like any other day right? Well...i found out that it was more lively back in hometown (the massive lot of people, weird timing jams) which was kinda expected seeing that it was a small town if compared to kl. At least the mood is there. Kl...on the other hand...has the look and the atmosphere but not the mood.

Anyway, cny was a little unusual this year, met up with pinkie isabel and catch up on gossips, banging and more banging. She's still quite the same as i remembered her. Kononnya she said her banging skills had improved compared to last time. I was quite proud of her but she said she only sticks to one topic only. Oh well...isabel..is isabel after all.

The later in the evening, my family went to one of our aunt's place to have steamboat on new years eve. Usually, we tend to go there for a few nights at least. However, this year we settled on eating home cooked food instead.

Honestly speaking i didnt really officially hang out until the 3rd day of cny. We are suppose to have a brief yamcha session until one of us suggested that we should go house visiting. And so, can say that everything went along the flow, we visited one house after another. I feel as if i was in some kind of multiracial rombongan when suddenly we decided to meet up with natasya and guna.

Speaking of weirdness, i discovered that this year, the gang seemed to be more interested in taking pictures. Usually, whenever someone holds a camera the group will either dispersed quickly or pretend to be looking elsewhere. I guess the time to be camera shy had faded as we grow up?

It's hard to be just ourselves

Sometimes i wonder, what is the best way to settle things?

Sometimes i wonder, is the best way i think of is the most appropriate solution?

Sometimes i wonder, what will my solution bring? Will it be unchanging or nasty or good?

Sometimes i wonder, what people will think of my solution? Will they be neutral or biased or supportive?

Sometimes i wonder, will i be right if i were to put this solution in action? Or will i be wrong? Or will i still ponders about the answer until i try it out?

Sometimes i wonder, why the harder i try, the more damage is done? Should i not continue my effort anymore?

Sometimes i wonder, why is that what i have done is often misunderstand by people? Should i keep quiet or continue trying?

Sometimes i wonder, why not pleasing everyone is a wrong thing to do? It's not something that i don't want to do, it is just an impossible task to achieve.

Now i know, it's not a matter of trying or coming up with solutions or putting everything into consideration.

Simply because, people don't seem to get it or care at all.

cookie~

Finally we let our tutor/lecturer see our scripts. Honestly, i didn't expect her to give such a big reaction. I thought the most she will say is "oklah." But this one is ah...her expression is priceless. She looked so genuinely shocked. I'm serious! And it happen so naturally. I don't know is it a good thing or a bad thing.

So, back to the topic, she chose 3 scripts which are frankie's, alwin's and nigel's. Now that is almost complete, we can get started on the drama scripts...nyehehehehe

***

This time for media planning, i get to work together with ruby, hwan mun and shi toh. Guess what is our product?

"Looks good kepoh phone"

Nolah...actually it was LG KP 500. It even had a code name entitled "cookie". No wonder the fella at the mobile shop said cookie when i asked him about this phone. I thought he had some kind of slang that i didnt know. Luckily i didnt ask. If not so paiseh man. Ask about the phone then dont know the code name. See? Sometimes, it's a good thing to keep quiet.

We are suppose to do a research about our product and do an evaluation on it. I had done some brief research and found out that it just released last year. Was announced in september and was released somewhere in december. Thank god the phone we are researching got some class in it, not some chiplak plastic phone.

Anyway, here are some cookie pictures for your reference:

images credited to lge.com

Specs :

• Quadband GSM (850/900/1800/1900), GPRS/Edge connectivity
• 3″ 240×400px 262K color TFT display/touchscreen
• 3 mpx (2048×1536 px) camera with 12 fps video recording
• Virtual on-screen QWERTY keyboard
• FM Radio
• Built-in motion sensor
• 46 MB of user memory
• microSD memory card slot
• Bluetooth A2DP, USB
• 900 mAh Li-Ion battery with 210 min talk and 330 hrs stand-by time
• Dimensions: 106.5×55.4×11.9mm
• Weight: 89
• 3G, wifi, gps, flash, divx playback and auto focus are not included

specs taken from unwiredview.com

CNY : feels like any other days?

If no one mentioned anything about CNY, i still be thinking of going for lectures next week. Is it just me or it seems like the cny mood is really really low this year? There are not much decoration in shopping malls but they frequently play the music la. Save cost perhaps? Aiya...the decorations also use the previous year wan...i think.

I only managed to get 3 new clothes and 1 pair of new jeans for CNY. It doesnt seem like it's enough. But it's not like i'm going to change a new pair every hour of the day right? So i guess, it's better i saved the money for something else. *hint* *hint*

I dont know why, i dont really seems too eager to celebrate the festival this year. Maybe because we receive disturbing news about our assignments (until now still haven gao tim about the grouping thing, how are we going to start leh?), piles of work that never seemed to lessen, and the constant pressure of date lines.

Haiyo...why this year like that wan?

MIA to NIA

I noticed i have not been *cough* blogging *cough* for like how many days? I didn't forget about this blog honest! I visited it every 2 or 3 days but the urge to post something faded?

Okay another reason was probably because i was busy, you know with variety of stuff. This is only the 2nd week of my semesters, i felt as if i was already in the middle of the semester. 6 subjects. It's all about do it properly or die.

And...the lectures this time are all pretty stoned. I couldn't find a anymore proper word to describe it. It was quite disappointing, seeing there's screenplay ( currently my favourite subject), tv production, so it should be pretty interesting right?

Nooooooooo

It wasnt at all. Why? because the lecturers sort of spoil all the fun. First there's not many equipment, then lack of time, grouping problems this that, this that, this that. They even told us we might be shooting next week, which is cny week. Can you imagine?

And to think that this happens to us when we are students...if employees...no offense i can understand why the company needs to get going even if it's after a festivals. Lack of equipment is not really our fault. The way they put it as though there is lack of equipment because there are simply too many students. At the end of the day, none is confirm. Not even the basic requirement for the assignment which is forming a group

Sigh...

Grrrrr

I.Hate.This.Semester's.Timetable.

This gotta be one of the worst timetable utar can ever offer. Half of the time we are spend switching between blocks for classes. In fact, i think most of our time will contribute between walking to pg from pc and from pg to pc.

The timing is not so bad this time. The only troublesome thing is that i have class on Saturday on midday at 12-2. Exactly midday. *Sigh* can we just move the sat class to Friday? After all we only have on class on that day?

The only thing that troubles me the most is the place. And it's like switching class after one another. If it's very very very near like the building next door i probably wouldn't mind. But it's a lil distance away.

Have you noticed that utar's timetable ALWAYS have flaws? be it exam's or normal classes? It's like it HAS to have something that is not right.

*sigh*

I hope we can change it soon....

I'm only a writer

I'm only a simple writer who holds no deep knowledge or accurate common sense. I deal in the politics of words...of human experiences....of dreams....of sadness. When I'm at my best, my pages laugh, dance and sing and they also sulk and cry. When I'm at my worst my pages are lifeless as they wait impatiently for me to make them come alive.

In their eyes, I'm a painter, I'm a composer, I am a director. I can be a patriot. I'm the enemy. I declare wars and and sometimes i hide from it. I'm able to be a tender lover but also a ruthless killer. In those pages, where words are the world, i can be anything.

It's a world filled with uncertainty, unpredictability....with blinds spots and dead ends...with straight lines which out of nowhere that can suddenly change direction.

It's a whirlpool of ethics and erotica....pathos and pleasure. And this is where the writer stands...in this middle of chaos, havoc and confusion like a sponge being soaked and squeezed.

Once you have calmed down, once you have clear your thoughts and for the first time you are ready to be sucked into this world of imagination...you face a constant dilemma of values. So consistent and persistent that is, you will be force to stand by your values or ride in the bandwagon.

This is the writer's world....where reality is twisted and forsaken...where daydreams are born and realized...where creativity and imagination are the roots of an unshakable passion.

This is where my passion grows...this is how i come to love writing.

Results are out

I got a B for public speaking and an A- for MMDA.

(=_=)

I was really really really hoping that i can managed to squeeze through and get an A/A- for public speaking. MMDA got an A- was really.....unexpected. I'm being serious here. This is the first time i really admit that my craps (got such word?!) are full of illogical stuff. Why la cannot let me get an A for ps meh?

Two years ago, i took the same subject and got the same result. Now, i took the subject again and got the same result also.

Boooohooohooo....does that mean that i'm not fated to get anything above B?

*sigh*

I'm still grateful that i didnt get any Cs though.

Story time

Just watched bedtime stories with the sot k backsides. Actually we watched it a few days ago already. But due to my stiffness of not blogging for quite some time, i didn't know how to start. Yeah, i know. So damn lame. (=_=)

Overall the plot/storyline was quite average to me la. It's is no doubt funny but i feel that it is actually still a bit flat despite the frequents humour and a bit of other things. Unrealistic should be the word. And we all know most Disney movies carries that element within them. But somehow this movie feel really nostalgic. It touches on childhood i guess, a part in which i have grown out of it.

Okay, i shall stop babbling before this post become meaningless.