Of the torture of waiting

Man, i'm freaking out. I dont feel that well anymore ( not the "well" in health). I dont feel at ease but surprisingly i still can eat and sleep well.

Internship, internship, internship

I cant get this word out of my head!!! Argh!!!!

I thought about it when i'm eating, when i'm doing my assignments, when i'm showering even when i'm playing dota!

Seriously, I dont want utar send me to places i dont like.

I hope i get a good reply soon. After all as they said, good things are worth the wait right? Let just hope that it's true.

Or else i mati la.

Of insecurities and lack of confidence

How you ever wonder what's the difference between "you want to do it" and "what you can do"?

Recently, i been pondering of those kinda things. Don't ask me. I just don't know.

I'm worried.

I don't know what i am capable of seriously.

Communication wise. Not really good.

Graphics wise. Not good either.

Language. Average only.

Creativity. Depends on time and situation.

It all comes down to nothing?

Sigh~

Shall i participate or not?

hmmm.....

*ponders deeply*

Vday

Nah, i didnt celebrate. I just want to wish everyone a happy valentine =)

Also here is a special valentine dance performed by both calvin and hobbes :







enjoy =p

Sushi Trip

Well...went to mid valley today after class for the sake of sushi (suppose to do my assignments but oh well....) I didn't know at first because initially i thought my sisters are just going to Mv for hair dye and a little bit of shopping as well. Then my mother broke the news to me indirectly. She sort of invited me to the outing. That was when my eldest sister had a weird smile on her face.

Anyway, let's get back to the story, we are suppose to meet one of my eldest sister's friend for lunch. Kononnya on today she had to belanja a friend. Soooo...she might have to spend more for additional mouth i guess????

So we went to Yuzu Japanese restaurant @ the gardens. The atmosphere was pretty good. Nice furniture and service was excellent.

The food was quite good but we only ordered sushis...didnt really touch on the set meals as we all are feeling quite full. Anyway here are the pictures :










The 25 things you don't know (and perhaps should know) about me

I didn't get tag directly, but from the way jojo had put it, it sounded more like i was tagged indirectly. Anyway here goes :

  1. I get annoyed at little things. And i mean really little things
  2. I'm pretty hot tempered all the time.
  3. I have shark phobia. Still have though.
  4. I am so damn lazy in everything...to the point that i sometimes feel very lazy to eat.
  5. I'm a greedy person especially in food...hiak hiak hiak...
  6. I can be calm and good mood but if you step on my tail i could be pretty mean and sarcastic.
  7. I have extreme mood swings.
  8. I cursed a lot
  9. I love cheese, chocolates, ice cream and most of all I'm in love with Japanese food. *hint hint*
  10. I love Japanese songs, those musical soundtracks ( that's why I'm so outdated in Eng songs and such)
  11. I'm an otaku.
  12. I hypo-contradicting. A lot too.
  13. I get distracted easily even during conversations.
  14. I get bored of something quickly.
  15. I love games ( video, computer, console) and technology (computer, gadgets)
  16. I daydream a lot. Anytime of the day except when i'm sleeping..duh!
  17. I dont really know how to dress up femininely. Most of the time, i will just go with what i feel comfortable with.
  18. I'm fashion blind. Matching colours is okay. Matching fashion is @@.
  19. I didnt like things to be too troublesome because i'll get lazy even before starting to do them ( yeah, i'm a spoil kid)
  20. I prefer to bottle up things instead of just firing them away. Dont ask me why. I dont really know either.
  21. I love my freedom, space and privacy a lot.
  22. I love to write more than talking....probably because i dont really get on well with people..sometimes...
  23. Complicated stuffs such as maths, marketing, strategy...i absolutely hate that. I prefer a more direct approach like language or common sense.
  24. I like to pretend that i dont care...sometimes...
  25. I love travelling and would like to stay somewhere else from malaysia in future.

Well that's all for my part. Now comes the tagging part. Should i tag anyone? Nah, i just leave it to you la. If you feel like doing after reading this post, then go ahead. If not, no matter =)

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Happy valentine's day everyone!

Remember, you dont need to be in love in order to celebrate.

Ponders....

Okay, after that disastrous japanese post, i have decided to stick to English instead. You see, the point for writing japanese is to practice using it so that i can confidently post something confidential on this blog. Somehow it didnt work out, as my sisters has miraclously found their way to read it by translating with dunno what.

(=_=)

So the plan to write in japanese failed apparently. I shall say no more.

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I'm seriously waiting for short film to finish. After that hopefully everything is being cleared out. But that have to see whether everything goes well or not right?

And before that, let me get through crm first.

T.T

ねがい

こんしゅうのどようびはバレンタインです。わたしもにじゅさいです。

わたしわしれたいですあいのきもち。

ことしのバレンタイン そしてきょねんのバレンタイン おなじですか?

わからない。

only time will tell

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Note: cacat japanese

i wonder.....

It just me or my luck is always like this?

Why on earth do i always get chosen for the first week?

Speaking of which, it was the same for public speaking too right?



はあああああああ〜

A Simple Lesson

  1. Lack of equipment
  2. Not enough time
  3. Unbalance group members
  4. Utar has no choice

Seriously all these made me wonder, is this what we are paying for?

First there's a problem with lack of equipment. Isn't that another way of saying there are too many of us? We are also told that those who are taking broadcast journalism are going to use the equipments as well. Okay, that is a conflict but shouldn't we be given the priority first seeing that it is our major?

Noooooooo. The tutor and lecturer just have to force us to shoot on week 3 which is the CNY week simply because there arent many equipment+ not enough time + not enough editting machines.

I dont know about you. You will probably think that there is no other choice but to do this. I disagree. Can you imagine that we are paying so much but in the end they just said there's not enough equipment?

Not only that, even our short film project which initially was 14 members a group is forced to form at least 18/19 per group. We were told that we only have six cameras available not 8. 18/19 people in a group...how much can everyone learn when there's only one camera for each group?

It all comes to one final answer :

Utar has no choice after all.

Yeah right.

Variety posts

On that particular morning when tp came for her usual visits, we settled in Sun Wong for lunch. After the usual brunch, we decided to use the toilet in the restaurant as the one in pg block was particularly very wet and water was leaking from above.

That was when i was locked in the toilet.

Tried turning the knob for a few times but the latch doesn't seem to move in as you turn it. So wawa went and get a lady and she said that it was impossible that it cant be opened. And so she tried and failed apparently. Then another lady came in ( i was guessing, but dunno whether got or not la...cause i cant see what) with a key trying to open the lock.

I tried telling them again and again that it is not because of the lock but the latch. But somehow the more i talked the more times they tried to unlock it with the key.

(=_=)

And sooooo, i took a picture of the latch from the inside and bluetoothed to wawa. Then she showed it to them. Then they are only convinced it wasn't because of the lock but the latch. And finally they called one of their male colleagues to break down the door. After that, the lady who tried to unlock it previously, tried the knob again.

(=_=)

okay, nevermind. I'm only glad that i was out of the toilet.

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images credited to wikipedia

Thoughts:

Both movies are pretty okay eventhough i feel that AWEL was a lot better in terms of humour and plotwise. I feel that both movies are not worth watching in cinemas and they don't really deserve a re-watch.

Actually i was hoping that wedding game would be much nicer than AWEL. But it turns out that AWEL is better than wedding game. If you ask me, i would say wedding game was sort of very predictable. If you want to know, just go watch it or ask *cough* somebody *cough* else. I don't want to have the honour of spoiling it for you unless i'm being very cheeky. hehe.

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Awkward, Awkward, Awkward.

Enough said.

Sooner or later the truth will be reveal.

Cny - okay not so bad after all

Finally back from hometown last thursday and i was and still in cny mood. Cant blame me though, i need time to get into momentum. Even a car needs to get their engine warm up before being driven right? Similar concept and solid reasons not excuses mind you.

Previously, i was saying that cny feels like any other day right? Well...i found out that it was more lively back in hometown (the massive lot of people, weird timing jams) which was kinda expected seeing that it was a small town if compared to kl. At least the mood is there. Kl...on the other hand...has the look and the atmosphere but not the mood.

Anyway, cny was a little unusual this year, met up with pinkie isabel and catch up on gossips, banging and more banging. She's still quite the same as i remembered her. Kononnya she said her banging skills had improved compared to last time. I was quite proud of her but she said she only sticks to one topic only. Oh well...isabel..is isabel after all.

The later in the evening, my family went to one of our aunt's place to have steamboat on new years eve. Usually, we tend to go there for a few nights at least. However, this year we settled on eating home cooked food instead.

Honestly speaking i didnt really officially hang out until the 3rd day of cny. We are suppose to have a brief yamcha session until one of us suggested that we should go house visiting. And so, can say that everything went along the flow, we visited one house after another. I feel as if i was in some kind of multiracial rombongan when suddenly we decided to meet up with natasya and guna.

Speaking of weirdness, i discovered that this year, the gang seemed to be more interested in taking pictures. Usually, whenever someone holds a camera the group will either dispersed quickly or pretend to be looking elsewhere. I guess the time to be camera shy had faded as we grow up?