i should have known

I don't know why i don't know the reason.

I don't know why am i feeling so scared.

I don't know why am i feeling insecure.

I don't know why i refuse to admit.

I don't know why i deny.

I don't know why am i feeling emotional, confuse, unsure, fear, insecure, lack of confidence.

Like the whirlpool, as complicated as that.

Is this how it's suppose to be?

i'm not sure am i the only one feeling like this.

But now,

I can say,

I finally found the answer.