A illness called "drowning in holidays"

I know. I know. I didnt update for so long already. Some of you are probably tired of waiting for me to update (if u have been following my blog la). Well, it cant be helped since i'm so addicted to non online activities like playing games and watching tv. Obviously, the addiction was so great that it suppresses my blogging mood. Campur together with extreme laziness, blogging just doesnt attract my attention anymore for now la. Since there's so many things to do without worrying much. Might as well enjoy to the fullest.

But times since to pass especially fast when you're having fun. I always feel that 19 days is not enough. Not for me anyways. I got a feeling this week will be a breeze. A blink of eye then it'll be sunday. Then i will reflect what have i done within the week. The answer will always be the same i guess. Nothing. But still time wont stop for you. It'll move on faster and faster till you have completely depleted your holidays then it'll only slow down. And it'll be terrible unbearable slow when you're having classes.

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Dont ask me. I have no idea how come i am talking bout this. Perhaps the lack of interaction or lack of brain activities put my brain cells in a dazed state. I shall try not to be katak dibawah tempurung anymore. It seems that it brings more harm than benefits. But i'm pretty convince that it's the other way round to me.

As for what i have been doing this past week and my disappearance from msn, nothing much happened. Seriously, i have nothing interesting to share and i dont think my daily routines sound very interesting either.

I only have a simple wish.

That i can meet my buddy after a 3 year separation. Believe it or not everytime we tried to meet up something got in the way. As if it's telling us not to meet.

But hopefully la, i will be able to meet her.

If this time, i didnt manage to meet her also, that means "suey" lor.

Until next time~

today's paper was ......

Today's paper sucks big time.

eventhough i study so much, hafal so much, it's still so sucky. It much more worse when you see familiar sentences but cant recall the keyword.

(=_=)

what la. kanasai betul.

In the end of the day, have to blame yourself only. Who ask you didnt study properly? Memang pandai cari pasal and cari mati now really mati lor. I dont even know if i can get 40 marks. There goes my b-

But i damn tak puas, because there are some that i remember but forgot what it is for already. Brainy tak larat already ah? Tak larat then give me warning la. Dont in the middle of the exam then go on strike. I very sad you know?

Mummy got asked me bout my exam. Come to think of it, she always asked me about exam. Sometimes, i just wish that she dont ask me anymore because i dont feel like explaining to her and i dont want to lie to her either. Sometimes i feel that she dont really trust me. Sometimes i also feel that she doesnt really listen to me either. I know la, i not as smart as my elder sisters, so stop comparing okay? Stop looking at me that way can or not? Seriously. Stop doing that.

Yes, i'm a sensitive brat. So be it.

At times, i feel it was so hard to tell her my results because she will keep asking and asking even when i dont feel like talking. Today, I wanted to just tell her "ok ah" but dunno why suddenly i cant do it. Dont tell me this mmt really get to me? But i'm seriously very worried i might get a C or D.





Oh well. Guess i still have to let it pass right?

Damn it.

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Here are a few piccies of the steamboat celebration.

Sorry ya, no description. Lazy la, so let the pictures do the talking la.

=)

live action chicken little

Dunno how come suddenly got alwin there wan~ > <

tengok sana

stephy displaying watermelon poking kung fu.

mandy being horny =p

frankie singing opera song

frankie singing continues~!

one word for alwin. funny!!!!

Dont play play ah. Stephy showing her high level vegetable eating kung fu

Apa ni stephy. Showing peace sign in steamboat restaurant. Out of place la.

fuiyoo~ mandy being horny again!!!! See? she so high!

the twin sisters of bc 2

the makan king of the steamboat event

Practice peace in steamboat restaurant. Yeah.

Note : All captions were made up. No offense ok? I just feeling nottie =p

P/s :

Happy birthday to sim yee, karloon and kar fai!!!

Welcome to the club =)

Done with it

YES!!!!

Finally finished com theories which is erm the hardest paper this sem???

But i got a freaking feeling that i wouldnt be able to get good marks. Why? Because i cannot finished in time! Eventhough i allocated about 25-30 mins for the last question and yet i cant finish it in time!!!! Argh, why la why??? This had never happened before. Then again this is com theory.

And i'm so damn glad that what i have read came out except for the marxist theory. I was hoping and hoping mcluhan will be coming out on section B but it appear in section A!

Com theory by right should be a 2 n a half paper seeing that there's so much thing to write yet so little time to fit all in. I tell you ah, i was so busy when the exam starts. Throughout the 2 hours, i only managed to stop once or twice for like about 3 seconds? After that continue writing! Even after i planned everything, i still short of time.

Chadou.

(=_=)

Sorry, just have to complain a bit. To celebrate the end of com theory exam mah. Better complain now or else get result that time no mood to complain already.

4 down 1 more to go which is mmt. This one ah, can get B- already cukup for me. A/A- is already impossible. At least this one dont have to worry bout passing. Just have to focus on korek-ing more marks from finals. Then after that is holiday time!!!

Yeah man, 3 weeks this time. Or more that that??? Better be more than that because the debt from last sem's holiday was not cleared yet. At least this time they schedule the exam better. I'll rather have more holidays than having stuck in the exams.

I cant wait for the exam to finish this thursday. Then:

i'll be freeee~

No more studying~

No more torturing my poor brainy~

No more stress~

Can recuperate brain cells and juice~

Teman back my psp~

then ah..then....

CUT~!

Reminder for brainy:

There is still mmt.on.this.thursday.

damn potong steam la

Tomorrow is Doom's day

Finally the hardest paper of the sem is tomorrow!!!

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

I dont want to fail.

Okay. Enough ranting.

Get back to studying

=(

Not in the mood

Dunno why i suddenly feel so jahaman celaka stupid not in mood today. My eyes soooo bengkak today and i feel so pek chek for half a day already. I seriously dont know what the hell is wrong with me. Thinking of start studying today then got this type of mood pulak. Feeling so blur and confused now. I dont think i know what i'm writing either.

Is this the so called exam panic breakdown?

I hope my "luan luan" thoughts will cleared off by itself soon. Seriously cannot delay studying anymore. Hope i can finish reading mmt by tonite. haiz

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Dear chicken,

Happy birthday!!!

sorry that i wish u late...

xp

i have half of my body in the coffin after 3 papers

Finally 3 papers finished. And no, it's not the end yet people. I still have 2 more to go. Both are extreme brain cells killer. Wish me luck. Yes, i need a lot of luck for this.

It's been a while since i had updated. Nothing much happen actually. The most interesting subject right now is most probably exams in which i think i screw pretty much 80% of the papers.

Bah, moral was..er...well moral was moral. Just that i didnt think it would be that hard. Though i am grateful that i had objectives for finals but i just wish the question dont twist so much la. I spent almost an hour on the stupid objective part. And the subjective part...well it's best that i left it unsaid.

Copywriting was ok i think. But i dont know if the lecturer or tutor will be able to grasp my ideas. If not ah, i can really die straight.

And finally yesterday finished bc. Honestly, i was kinda glad that most of the questions are rather straight forward. Well, knowing Mr.Beh, he'll most probably come up with tricky questions that will confuse the hell out of you. I'm just glad he decided to let that pass. Dont want to fail the subject just because i misinterpret it. That would be very very very sad. And another thing is, out of all the days, i had to have nosebleed during exam when i got so many points to write out! The lecturer/tutor was very kind and gave me a packet of tissue and also put the waste paper basket near me.

Thank you very much to miss foo and the-other-i-dunno-what's-her-name lecturer/tutor

*bows*

The-other-i-dunno-what's-her-name lecturer/tutor asked me twice whether i want to go toilet and also whether i might want to switch places due to the coldness. I politely refuse. If i have more time perhaps i would go. But who knows how long the nosebleed is going to last? So bloody mafan to get distracted by nosebleed when you're writing. Thank god it is just a mild nose bleed and it stopped after a while. Phew~ *wipes sweat*

Somehow, i got this twisted weird feeling that i might not be getting ANY As or A-s for this semester. Both bc and copywriting are based on ideas, lagi hard to get. Then still got mmt and CT, both also extremely hard to get. But whatever it is, i just hope to get at least b- for all subjects. I dont want C or D or fail.....

Lastly, to all my friends who are unwell due to whatever reasons, hope you guys get well soon and take good care of your health. I dont want to critic tooo much because i still haven get rid of the cough since 3 weeks ago. Sob Sob Sob.....

Progress

Yeah, i made progress. I mean REAL progress. Not some speed reading for 5 minutes or some day dreaming through my attempts in studying.

Apparently this illness of mine changed me in a way. I dont really know how to put it but it brought certain changes to me until i feel that it's weird.

0.0

I used to study at night because i would get distracted/lazy/sleepy during the day especially afternoon. So studying during daylight is a no no for me. However, recently i had discovered that i can fully concentrate studying in the afternoon. Like 100% focus. Oklah, not 100% but around 80%. And i cant seem to study at night already!

During this study week, i tend to sleep more than studying. To make matter worse, i have to take a drowsy cough syrup 3 times a day. It seems that Mr. Cough is in love with me and refuses to go away. Sad case betul.

Then nowadays, i cant seem to sleep late anymore. Last time i can tahan until 4 or 5 pm wan, now cannot already. By 2 something or latest 3 something have to offline already because ah i found out if i sleep too late right, i will have sore throat the next day. I tried for 2 days. 2 days also like that.

Ahhhhhhh!!!! What is happening to me??

Study break???

Did i ever mentioned to you how much i hate coughing?

I would rather have running nose than having coughing fits. Okay, you will have problems when you are sleeping like your nose get blocked and all that but you can continue breathing through your mouth. With coughing it's an different story. You have to wake up several times during the night, get rid of the phlegm and wait for the coughing session to end so that you can continue sleeping. And usually it's not a peaceful sleep. One more thing i hate about cough is that you dont get well easily. It stays on for god knows how long although it gets lesser and lesser day by day. Still, it annoys the hell out of me. It's been a week since i have this coughing thingy and it's not recover till now! And yes my voice still sounds choked up. Sheesh.

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Study break is here and i dont feel like studying at all. In fact, i feel as if i'm already on holiday minus the part where my first paper is on this coming saturday. And seriously, i dont feel like starting anytime soon. I feel as if most of my free times had been robbed by assignments. If only our assignments are to end earlier and maybe i would be more motivated to start studying soon?

Still, i do deserve a lil relax and enjoy for a few more days right? I know. My results will go downhill in this semester as well. Havent really put in much effort in this semester .

And you know what? i ran out of things to say. I just want to vent my frustration on the blog. I had been sick for so long. I am tired of being sick. I want to be healthly.

Seriously, i want to get well. I want to spend the day peacefully without blocked nose, coughing fits, feverish forehead and swelling throat. Can or not?