It's hard to be just ourselves

Sometimes i wonder, what is the best way to settle things?

Sometimes i wonder, is the best way i think of is the most appropriate solution?

Sometimes i wonder, what will my solution bring? Will it be unchanging or nasty or good?

Sometimes i wonder, what people will think of my solution? Will they be neutral or biased or supportive?

Sometimes i wonder, will i be right if i were to put this solution in action? Or will i be wrong? Or will i still ponders about the answer until i try it out?

Sometimes i wonder, why the harder i try, the more damage is done? Should i not continue my effort anymore?

Sometimes i wonder, why is that what i have done is often misunderstand by people? Should i keep quiet or continue trying?

Sometimes i wonder, why not pleasing everyone is a wrong thing to do? It's not something that i don't want to do, it is just an impossible task to achieve.

Now i know, it's not a matter of trying or coming up with solutions or putting everything into consideration.

Simply because, people don't seem to get it or care at all.

cookie~

Finally we let our tutor/lecturer see our scripts. Honestly, i didn't expect her to give such a big reaction. I thought the most she will say is "oklah." But this one is ah...her expression is priceless. She looked so genuinely shocked. I'm serious! And it happen so naturally. I don't know is it a good thing or a bad thing.

So, back to the topic, she chose 3 scripts which are frankie's, alwin's and nigel's. Now that is almost complete, we can get started on the drama scripts...nyehehehehe

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This time for media planning, i get to work together with ruby, hwan mun and shi toh. Guess what is our product?

"Looks good kepoh phone"

Nolah...actually it was LG KP 500. It even had a code name entitled "cookie". No wonder the fella at the mobile shop said cookie when i asked him about this phone. I thought he had some kind of slang that i didnt know. Luckily i didnt ask. If not so paiseh man. Ask about the phone then dont know the code name. See? Sometimes, it's a good thing to keep quiet.

We are suppose to do a research about our product and do an evaluation on it. I had done some brief research and found out that it just released last year. Was announced in september and was released somewhere in december. Thank god the phone we are researching got some class in it, not some chiplak plastic phone.

Anyway, here are some cookie pictures for your reference:

images credited to lge.com

Specs :

• Quadband GSM (850/900/1800/1900), GPRS/Edge connectivity
• 3″ 240×400px 262K color TFT display/touchscreen
• 3 mpx (2048×1536 px) camera with 12 fps video recording
• Virtual on-screen QWERTY keyboard
• FM Radio
• Built-in motion sensor
• 46 MB of user memory
• microSD memory card slot
• Bluetooth A2DP, USB
• 900 mAh Li-Ion battery with 210 min talk and 330 hrs stand-by time
• Dimensions: 106.5×55.4×11.9mm
• Weight: 89
• 3G, wifi, gps, flash, divx playback and auto focus are not included

specs taken from unwiredview.com

CNY : feels like any other days?

If no one mentioned anything about CNY, i still be thinking of going for lectures next week. Is it just me or it seems like the cny mood is really really low this year? There are not much decoration in shopping malls but they frequently play the music la. Save cost perhaps? Aiya...the decorations also use the previous year wan...i think.

I only managed to get 3 new clothes and 1 pair of new jeans for CNY. It doesnt seem like it's enough. But it's not like i'm going to change a new pair every hour of the day right? So i guess, it's better i saved the money for something else. *hint* *hint*

I dont know why, i dont really seems too eager to celebrate the festival this year. Maybe because we receive disturbing news about our assignments (until now still haven gao tim about the grouping thing, how are we going to start leh?), piles of work that never seemed to lessen, and the constant pressure of date lines.

Haiyo...why this year like that wan?

MIA to NIA

I noticed i have not been *cough* blogging *cough* for like how many days? I didn't forget about this blog honest! I visited it every 2 or 3 days but the urge to post something faded?

Okay another reason was probably because i was busy, you know with variety of stuff. This is only the 2nd week of my semesters, i felt as if i was already in the middle of the semester. 6 subjects. It's all about do it properly or die.

And...the lectures this time are all pretty stoned. I couldn't find a anymore proper word to describe it. It was quite disappointing, seeing there's screenplay ( currently my favourite subject), tv production, so it should be pretty interesting right?

Nooooooooo

It wasnt at all. Why? because the lecturers sort of spoil all the fun. First there's not many equipment, then lack of time, grouping problems this that, this that, this that. They even told us we might be shooting next week, which is cny week. Can you imagine?

And to think that this happens to us when we are students...if employees...no offense i can understand why the company needs to get going even if it's after a festivals. Lack of equipment is not really our fault. The way they put it as though there is lack of equipment because there are simply too many students. At the end of the day, none is confirm. Not even the basic requirement for the assignment which is forming a group

Sigh...

Grrrrr

I.Hate.This.Semester's.Timetable.

This gotta be one of the worst timetable utar can ever offer. Half of the time we are spend switching between blocks for classes. In fact, i think most of our time will contribute between walking to pg from pc and from pg to pc.

The timing is not so bad this time. The only troublesome thing is that i have class on Saturday on midday at 12-2. Exactly midday. *Sigh* can we just move the sat class to Friday? After all we only have on class on that day?

The only thing that troubles me the most is the place. And it's like switching class after one another. If it's very very very near like the building next door i probably wouldn't mind. But it's a lil distance away.

Have you noticed that utar's timetable ALWAYS have flaws? be it exam's or normal classes? It's like it HAS to have something that is not right.

*sigh*

I hope we can change it soon....

I'm only a writer

I'm only a simple writer who holds no deep knowledge or accurate common sense. I deal in the politics of words...of human experiences....of dreams....of sadness. When I'm at my best, my pages laugh, dance and sing and they also sulk and cry. When I'm at my worst my pages are lifeless as they wait impatiently for me to make them come alive.

In their eyes, I'm a painter, I'm a composer, I am a director. I can be a patriot. I'm the enemy. I declare wars and and sometimes i hide from it. I'm able to be a tender lover but also a ruthless killer. In those pages, where words are the world, i can be anything.

It's a world filled with uncertainty, unpredictability....with blinds spots and dead ends...with straight lines which out of nowhere that can suddenly change direction.

It's a whirlpool of ethics and erotica....pathos and pleasure. And this is where the writer stands...in this middle of chaos, havoc and confusion like a sponge being soaked and squeezed.

Once you have calmed down, once you have clear your thoughts and for the first time you are ready to be sucked into this world of imagination...you face a constant dilemma of values. So consistent and persistent that is, you will be force to stand by your values or ride in the bandwagon.

This is the writer's world....where reality is twisted and forsaken...where daydreams are born and realized...where creativity and imagination are the roots of an unshakable passion.

This is where my passion grows...this is how i come to love writing.

Results are out

I got a B for public speaking and an A- for MMDA.

(=_=)

I was really really really hoping that i can managed to squeeze through and get an A/A- for public speaking. MMDA got an A- was really.....unexpected. I'm being serious here. This is the first time i really admit that my craps (got such word?!) are full of illogical stuff. Why la cannot let me get an A for ps meh?

Two years ago, i took the same subject and got the same result. Now, i took the subject again and got the same result also.

Boooohooohooo....does that mean that i'm not fated to get anything above B?

*sigh*

I'm still grateful that i didnt get any Cs though.

Story time

Just watched bedtime stories with the sot k backsides. Actually we watched it a few days ago already. But due to my stiffness of not blogging for quite some time, i didn't know how to start. Yeah, i know. So damn lame. (=_=)

Overall the plot/storyline was quite average to me la. It's is no doubt funny but i feel that it is actually still a bit flat despite the frequents humour and a bit of other things. Unrealistic should be the word. And we all know most Disney movies carries that element within them. But somehow this movie feel really nostalgic. It touches on childhood i guess, a part in which i have grown out of it.

Okay, i shall stop babbling before this post become meaningless.

Blog reactivate

Yes!!! I'm finally back!!! But not soon enough to make a last entry in 2008. Well..i guess i don't need to worry about not posting it because there seems to be several blog posts on my blog list to remind me of the coming of the end of 2008. Don't be mistaken. 2008 was a good year for me. Not too great but good enough for me to recall back every now and then.

Anyway..i am official reactivating this blog now that I'm back after disappearing for more than a week. Not much happen though in S'pore. It was a okay trip. Was given 2 pairs of pants and t-shirts and a mountain of food.

Macky is back after being admitted to maccity hospital for more than a week due to corrupted RAMs.

Attended a new year party at weiyuen's place on the 31st and 1st.

My dad and grandma is up here which results in me sharing a bed with my mum.

I spend the 2nd day of the year catching up on the fanfics, manga, anime and other random stuff.

My external harddisk is home too. Brought back several psp games to try out.

Have been thinking to buy a ps2 or a wii. Haven decided yet. Have to raise funds first. Donation anyone?

Uni will resumed in a fortnight's time. Have to give some consideration on internship. Hell, what a headache!

With things started to come pouring in, it's gotta to be new year. A new start as what they usually say. Well..let's just hope thingd turn out okay this year...if not better.

Happy New Year everyone!

Hope 2009 will full of wonders and less chaos!!!!