Bug off

Nooooo

i'm not down with a bug flu. I think i have been infected with a supposedly clumsy bug. You see, my second sister has been complaining that she seems to hit anything that stands in her way. So i was wondering whether did she passed that bug to me directly or indirectly?

I hit the door when it was open.

i stumbled into the weighing machine on my way to the kitchen.

My pants tersangkut at the drawer's handle. And i hit myself at the cabinet.

I accidentally knock the chair with my toe.

Even when i sit still, i still hit the table when i try to reach for the mouse.

(=_=)"""""

*looks around*

*brush imaginary clumsy bug off hands and legs*

I'm only a writer

I'm only a simple writer who holds no deep knowledge or accurate common sense. I deal in the politics of words...of human experiences....of dreams....of sadness. When I'm at my best, my pages laugh, dance and sing and they also sulk and cry. When I'm at my worst my pages are lifeless as they wait impatiently for me to make them come alive.

In their eyes, I'm a painter, I'm a composer, I am a director. I can be a patriot. I'm the enemy. I declare wars and and sometimes i hide from it. I'm able to be a tender lover but also a ruthless killer. In those pages, where words are the world, i can be anything.

It's a world filled with uncertainty, unpredictability....with blinds spots and dead ends...with straight lines which out of nowhere that can suddenly change direction.

It's a whirlpool of ethics and erotica....pathos and pleasure. And this is where the writer stands...in this middle of chaos, havoc and confusion like a sponge being soaked and squeezed.

Once you have calmed down, once you have clear your thoughts and for the first time you are ready to be sucked into this world of imagination...you face a constant dilemma of values. So consistent and persistent that is, you will be force to stand by your values or ride in the bandwagon.

This is the writer's world....where reality is twisted and forsaken...where daydreams are born and realized...where creativity and imagination are the roots of an unshakable passion.

This is where my passion grows...this is how i come to love writing.

Blog reactivate

Yes!!! I'm finally back!!! But not soon enough to make a last entry in 2008. Well..i guess i don't need to worry about not posting it because there seems to be several blog posts on my blog list to remind me of the coming of the end of 2008. Don't be mistaken. 2008 was a good year for me. Not too great but good enough for me to recall back every now and then.

Anyway..i am official reactivating this blog now that I'm back after disappearing for more than a week. Not much happen though in S'pore. It was a okay trip. Was given 2 pairs of pants and t-shirts and a mountain of food.

Macky is back after being admitted to maccity hospital for more than a week due to corrupted RAMs.

Attended a new year party at weiyuen's place on the 31st and 1st.

My dad and grandma is up here which results in me sharing a bed with my mum.

I spend the 2nd day of the year catching up on the fanfics, manga, anime and other random stuff.

My external harddisk is home too. Brought back several psp games to try out.

Have been thinking to buy a ps2 or a wii. Haven decided yet. Have to raise funds first. Donation anyone?

Uni will resumed in a fortnight's time. Have to give some consideration on internship. Hell, what a headache!

With things started to come pouring in, it's gotta to be new year. A new start as what they usually say. Well..let's just hope thingd turn out okay this year...if not better.

Happy New Year everyone!

Hope 2009 will full of wonders and less chaos!!!!

Pets and plants

I think i have been saying this for the longest time already. And each time my thoughts are always rejected. Both places that i am staying doesn't allow pets. Don't say the place, even the owners do not allow pets saying it was troublesome and dirty.

i have always loooooonnnngggg to have a pet.

Not something soft and cold. Not hard and cold either ( i had enough of unwanted pests in the house). Not slimy and slippery too. Not green and passive also.

It should be soft and fluffy. Something active. Something like these :

all pictures credited to google images

I'm not entirely sure whether you can take a chipmunk as a pet. But imagine the wonders and the chaos if you can do so ^^

I'm a pretty racist person when it comes to pets. I like pets with nice colours. I dont like black colour animals especially black cats. They look so evil even if their fur shines in the day light. I like cute lil cats and dogs when they are babies. They are just so cute and cuddly.

Come to think of it, i'm not entirely a pet-less person. In fact, i have a few pets and they died and ran away...oopss...i should they swam away.

The first real pet i had was a pair of red-eared terrapins.

picture credited to the pet shop online

They died shortly after that. I dont know what happened T.T

Then i bought another pair of terrapins. Brought them up to kl for holidays and left them in the aquarium ( my uncle rears fish). Next time when i'm back, the whole aquarium is empty except for the 2 terrapins. Asked what happened. Been told that my two old good terrapins ate all the fishes as well as the fish foods.

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Arent terrapins suppose to be herbivores?

Okay, put them outside in a those type of big dragon clay flower pots and filled them with water. By then they had already grown about 15cm long. Initially their baby sizes are around 5 cm. So imagine that.

One day, i got a call from my aunt saying that the rain was very heavily and the terrappins sort of swam away because the water overflowed in the pot.

Chadou.

So there goes my another pair of terrapins. And it happened on the day that i decided to give away my so called herbivourous pets to the temple.

(=_=)

Okay, fine. Nevermind.

Next stop i have another mouse pet. Actually it's not a pet la. My sister bought it for her experiments. After that then it becomes a pet because well...you cant throw it away nor u cant kill it so..the last resort was to keep it. lol.

This rodent of ours is very unique. While most mice have tails, this particular is tail-less. So if you look a far, you might mistaken it for a hamster instead. Furthermore, this pet of ours have a very interesting name.

Its name is kanasai.

Hey, dont give me that look. I'm not the one who named it.

Oh well, it died a year and a half later. It got real sick and yeah...died eventually.

It this some kind of weird sign saying that i shouldnt be allow to have pets? I hope not. I definitely want to have one.

And dont get me started on plants. They are just sooooo green and passive. Heck you dont even see if they are moving or growing. My mother loves plants. Yeah, it's nice and green. But dont you find it a bit too boring? I agree it is way more easier to care for than a moving animal. Honestly, i dont have any talent in caring for my plants.

Mum left me and my sister to take care of the plants because she went back to johor. A few days later, it started to get a lil yellow and brownish. And then one of the leaves dried up and was practically hanging like a dead fish. Several days later the same symptoms were seen on the rest of the other plants.

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My sister did the watering. I did a little coz i forgot all the time and it still turn yellow-ish. While when my mum did the watering it didnt show any signs of going to die.

Dont say about normal plants...have you heard that cactuses died too? In my case yes.

Sis's bf brought back some live cactuses from cameron. A few months later....

The top cactus...well it looks like someone had sat on it. As for the bottom right, did you notice the unhealthy shade of yellow? It suppose to look like something on the left.

And now it's only left with 2 cactuses. Let's see how long it'll last =p

Boss sudah balik

Alas, my peaceful week had come to an end.

After a week of absence, the boss of the house had come back yesterday. She brought back lots of goodies like hometown food.

*squeeeaaaaaallllls*

It's been ages since i last ate these foods. Even if i'm back in hometown, still got no chance to eat these foods. Know why? These places are too far to be reach by foot. Plus together with the weather and mafan-ness, the interest just died voluntary.

I will try to find pictures on the net regarding the foods i have mentioned. Again, due to my greediness, i ate the food without taking any pictures. I only remembered it after licking the plate clean.

(=_=)

oh boy...

Super lame post

WARNING !!!!

Seriously, i dunno whether it's funny or i'm stunned.

It's so damn weird.

Well maybe, I'm the weird one. Randomly posting up images like that.

But but but don't you think it's pretty cute?

=p

Thirsty?

"Ask For More"

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Thoughts:

Er, i'm not sure whether you have heard of this, but i find the flavours very er...erhm...what's the word? ah! disturbing.

If you are telling me, it's an isotonic drink then i'll understand the colour. But hello? It's pepsi + yogurt. So should it taste as gassy as pepsi or should it be as sour as yogurt?

As for the ice cucumber ( cucumber?!), welllllll, i'm not sure if i would like to try it. Is it my imagination or is pepsi learning towards producing health drinks seeing that there's an addition of yogurt and cucumber? But then again it's still carbonated so no? Hmmmm.....tricky.

By the way, this drink is only available in Japan i think and i'm not sure when it's coming over to Malaysia.

Seriously, Japanese people never ceased to amaze me. They always come up with weird but fantastic stuff (not talking bout the drink). I'm not surprise if they manage to produce a mushroom flavour pepsi in future.

Hahahahahahahaha

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All pic belongs to akihabara.com

impromptulicius

Yes, i pretty aware that there is no such word. It is something that i add on just to adjust to the mood that I'm currently feeling.

Been feeling tired thanks to the energy consuming morning session. All the anxiety, nervousness, edginess really took the toll on me even though i only feel the aftermath now. Like i had predicted, although i keep telling myself i can do it, but i still make mistakes...oops correction i should say i make a lot of mistakes.

You see that's the thing that happened to me when i'm impromptu-ing. I never seemed to use the correct words at the right time. And my points just repeat and repeat. Plus with all the un-planned pauses.

*Sigh*

Another typical case of my mouth working faster than my brain.

*sob sob*

But, i dont feel that nervous already when i'm talking infront. Okay maybe a little bit. I just hope my next speech will be more natural, fluent and mistakes free. I think i'm able to survive this course right? Right. Nowwwwwww i need some ideas for my next speech.

Can someone spray me with some topic powder?

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Okay, i'm not sure why i'm going to blog bout this. But i feel the need to. I pretty aware that my language usage is sometimes er...not very polite. Then again, this is my blog. So i can write anything that i want. Which is why i'm debating on whether to let my father knows bout my current blog or not ( he is asking for my url btw).

You see, he is very serious bout the language. So i'm not entirely sure how he'll accept my english in which i have corrupted, modify and edited. Two pretty good examples, are the wide usage of manglish and almost a variety of crude languages or simply put "bad words"

So now, i'm in dilemma.

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Oh yes, i am.

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p/s:

dear quirky,

Yes, i still remember you. You're my sister's friend. I'm not sure when you have started reading my blog. I just only noticed yesterday that you left a comment on one of my posts. I'm sorry to give a late reply and I seriously didnt think someone will browse through my archive.

Anyway thanks for dropping by and i love your hand made cards. They are soooooo lovely!!! ^^

Have a nice day =)

Reminder

Er, yes i know i am leaving today. But just want to inform you that i will be internet-less for a few days. So if you send any email or anything online i wont be able to reply or receive it.

If you see me signing in msn, that is most probably not me. I explained it a few posts back but i'm not sure you guys still remember or not. Erm, nevermind la. I double remind again.

I usually put auto sign in and because my house internet is wireless so anyone who uses a computer with my msn messenger will auto sign in ( just in case you send a msg on msn and i didnt reply you)

So that's all!!!

Happy enjoying the last week of holidays!!!

Progress

Yeah, i made progress. I mean REAL progress. Not some speed reading for 5 minutes or some day dreaming through my attempts in studying.

Apparently this illness of mine changed me in a way. I dont really know how to put it but it brought certain changes to me until i feel that it's weird.

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I used to study at night because i would get distracted/lazy/sleepy during the day especially afternoon. So studying during daylight is a no no for me. However, recently i had discovered that i can fully concentrate studying in the afternoon. Like 100% focus. Oklah, not 100% but around 80%. And i cant seem to study at night already!

During this study week, i tend to sleep more than studying. To make matter worse, i have to take a drowsy cough syrup 3 times a day. It seems that Mr. Cough is in love with me and refuses to go away. Sad case betul.

Then nowadays, i cant seem to sleep late anymore. Last time i can tahan until 4 or 5 pm wan, now cannot already. By 2 something or latest 3 something have to offline already because ah i found out if i sleep too late right, i will have sore throat the next day. I tried for 2 days. 2 days also like that.

Ahhhhhhh!!!! What is happening to me??

Word of the week : Confuse

People, i'm proud to announced that we had survived our agonizing-wtf-a-pain-in-the-ass presentation. For more details, pls refer to jasmine's blog. Thank you.

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Recent events had me confuse, whether it is in terms of words or communication.

For my part in com theories, i was already so damn confuse with my stand and to make matter worse, i was further confuse by another person's work. This resulted in a confusion where both parties are trying to explain to each other but somehow makes the situation more confusing than ever.

Not only that, i had received a very confusing email in which i initially thought it was a spam. It turns out to be an email sent by our class rep to our lecturer. It is not easy to deal with the confusion earlier, but dont la add more confusing things into a whirlpool of confusion.

Seriously, i didnt know the word "confuse" could be used to such extend. It was confusingly creative in a way. For i wouldnt have thought of it even if you give me ten years or so.

This has open up more opportunities to explore the usage of words and to use it to our advantage. But i must say it was really great of the person to not be confuse by words used by a confuse person in order to solve a problem but instead created more confusion.

And i hope this confusion will die out sooner or later. Never do i want to stuck in such confusing situation again.

Never again.

Once is more than enough.

Weird-ness

Today i cant help but feeling kinda of weird. I dont really know the reason why. And the only thing i can figured out it was because of the hungry ghost month? But i think it's very unlikely.

I dont have my usual craving for junk food. I dont feel hungry. But i still stuffed myself full with tiger biscuits.

My mum didnt come and disturb me when she get back home. Fyi she usually comes and kacau me everytime without fail.

My sister didnt come with annoyed me with her usual sing-song name calling routine. Even though she used to do it all the time.

This is so weird.

What is wrong?

I seriously have no idea.

Of presentation and outing

YES!!!!

Finally finished my moral presentation. Hiak hiak hiak.

Yesterday was feeling kind of nervous before and during presentation. I guess too long never present really will affect the performance a bit. And it would be even more helpful if the we werent require to speak malay. You know la, my bm so cacated already. Want to construct a simple sentence also must think for a very long time.

Even the mic was emo with us yesterday. We changed the mic 2 times before it managed to work properly. And so being the sot k group that we are, we presented without using mic at all. LOL. But overall everything went well and there are even a few funny scenes in between.

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Went and watched dark knight again today and for the first time i saw edison chen! Yeah i didnt notice him when i first time i watched the movie. Heck, i didnt know he were there also. And his appearance last for about 5 secs only? Damn kesian man.

Actually right, i'm not suppose to be watching movie. What i really must do is to read com theory instead. And we have a consultation with miss louise tmr morning. To make matter worse, i havent really done any serious reading, well okay la, i did, but only a few pages.

Argh!!!

You cannot blame me. So thick the books and so small the fonts. No motivation at all la.

sigh~

Better get started now.

=(

Losing interest

Heck, i just recently realised i'm starting to lose interest in tv series/documentaries. Last time tv was my bestfriend probably because there's not much to do, no internet or i have spare time to kill.

Now that i have astro and even a dvd player, i still glued my lazy ass to chair and staring away at my notebook for long hours. And yet i dont feel bored...

Er....at times yes but most of the time nope.

Is it the actor/actress that make me lose interest? I dont think so. I think i'm leaning more towards supernatural or vampires kind of genre. I'm pretty bored with romance or school life kinda thingy already. I just dont understand how series like desperate housewives or game shows like the apprentice can come up with so many seasons eventho it's using the same concept. Dont they get bored of having the same thing over and over again?

I will still stay loyal to heroes if the show doesnt confuse me that much. LoL. Not only that, i will gladly use my time to watch a documentary or two if astro hasnt been wasting time repeating the same episode over and over again. And i heard ms sageena mentioned that u have to pay the copyright money to the company each time u broadcast the show. Hell...no wonder astro isnt earning money.

To my horror i have actually come to like oprah talk shows!

i used to be very the lazy and dont even bother to watch and last night i watched the entire show without thinking of the internet in which i normally do. That's why i usually wont stay for long unless i really have nothing to do or i have longer attention span.

Am i still me?

hmmmm......

Whatever it is, i hope i'm not swinging in the wrong direction.