Booboo's world

2011-05-20T18:54:00.002+08:00

^^ i think many of you are wondering where i am, what i'm doing etc. I'm still at mph working in a department where i dont know how to read and write the language -_-""""

It may seems weird, but i feel a lil thrilled working in that area. Yeah finding books can be difficult but if it wasnt for that i wouldnt have the initiative to get the know the language.

Though i do hope that the salary would be a lil higher, still it's a learning experience.

It may seems a lil too late, but there's a lot of things that i want to do. To learn about business or to enrol in a volunteer program or to learn cooking or just to work in a zoo for a day.

It may seem like a limited tiring working life as it eats away your free time but mum's right about it, working serves as a purpose. And it is a purpose that makes strive and grow :D

2011-03-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

O.O

i probably just might have a supernatural ability. An ability to predict results. Ha!

Remember i said about applying for another job in the previous post? Yeah, my hunch is right. I did not get the job unfortunately.

*pats self on the back*

Lol, i wasnt exactly upset, i wasnt that disappointed neh, dont give me that look, oklah maybe just a bit sad but not enough to hold me down.

But i was happy that i tried. *claps for my own effort*

*kay off to job hunt*

impromptu dizziness

2011-03-11T11:14:00.003+08:00

i've never been good at impromptu. Sometimes i said stuff without proper thinking.

O_O i'm afraid it did jeopardize my chance. Damn. Made a call to a company this morning, asking on why I was called. It turns out that they are still reviewing my application and just wanna call to inform me.

=_= never did i expect them to call me back a few minutes later to ask questions. -_- think i completely blew it. I said i was attached to another company and was on probation. That probably threw them off i think. Q_Q suppose to say it;s only temporary. Let's just hope they dont take it to heart :D

-.- somehow i doubt it. Sigh this is just me. Failing at impromptu-ness. I should start giving up now, but i was happy that i did tried =D

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I was wondering why no replies rupa-rupanya hotmail didnt send my msg through -_-, but i dont know that for sure also, maybe their inbox is really full too.

Luckily i braved myself to send another time, of course not hotmail, gmail =) it works, for now i'm just sadly wanting for a reply that wont be coming :(

2011-03-09T00:45:00.002+08:00

We are born into the same family at different times. Yet i wondered why is our lives so much different? why am i the one who always have to go through difficult stuff? Why am i the one who always have to struggle but yet just get an average result? Why am i the one who works the hardest but yet get nothing in return? Why am i the one who is always alone.

we're in the same family but it seems i got nothing.

hmmmm

2011-03-07T11:18:00.001+08:00

this is life before work :

- staring at computer screen
- eating brunch
- wondering why am i working
- hoping i dont have to work
- zzzzzzz

2011-03-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

i killed my soul mate.

Did you just hear it wrongly? No you didnt, i did murdered my soul mate.

I still remembered as clearly as it happened yesterday. There was no remorse, no hesitation. I took a weapon and plunged it deeply into the chest. What triggered that, i don't know myself.

Probably the tiredness or the emptiness or the lack of interest. Whatever trigger it, i left it to die. Nononono not for a sec or 5 minutes, i left it to die for 2 years.

Never once did i went to visit the grave, till now. I felt that i should be courageous and resume taking back the responsibility, after all it was me who created it in the first place.

So here i am today back to my old blog poking at the deadness and wondering why did i stopped writing for two years .

Ha! Kononnya say i like writing but stopped writing for 2 years -_-

Yeah i was talking about my blog. You really think i killed someone meh -_-

Browsing through the archives, i realised o.o i'm such a bullshitter erm i mean babblemouth. -_- i wondered how did i manage to type so much during those time while i need to crack my head just to get a sentence out during these days.

o.o but but but i think i've done a pretty good job today, i type more than expected :D after 2 years of break o.o;;;

*off to do cpr on dead blog* o.o i hope it works after two years tho~

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Ty all

2009-11-20T01:50:00.002+08:00

Blog is no longer active. In fact, i'm sure most of you would have already noticed it. Blog is dead.
I have no intention of reviving it. Probably there would be a comeback in future but for now it will be inactive.

Thanks for reading and supporting me ^^

Have a good day =)

Internship updates

2009-07-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

Sigh...

It is a super duper stressful frustrated horrible vegetable experience last week. To put it simply it is a nightmare where you be meeting the same monster again and again.

Monday was the worst day of all. Most of you probably can guess what happen from my previous blog post. Since we already kena shoot full blast on Monday, the following days seems like a draggy depressing upsetting week.

Anyway I'm glad that uneventful week was over and looking forward to this week though i have a feeling it wouldn't be that great after all. At least all the stupid shits from last week has been cleared out completely. I guess they also know there's not much time to waste on banning ideas.

Speaking of which, we wouldn't be having any shooting this month. Moreover i overheard that we only have one shooting somewhere around the middle of August. Another big project would commerce at the beginning of September when my internship ends.

6 more weeeks to go. Weeee!!! It should be quite fast right?

Right.

today is a good day for rants

2009-07-13T21:24:00.003+08:00

p/s : this post is not directed to anyone else. I am merely complaining/stating/letting go something from my point of view.

Read it at your own risk.

Yeap. It is a good day. There is NO other day more suitable than today.

Know why?

Cause i'..., sorry not I, it's WE. WE have been shoot kau kau by some idiotic person who don't know that he is constantly CONTRADICTING and EATING his words. Plus, there's another person who is also constantly pouring fuel to the fire. Dont you lurrve how helpful the other idiot seems to be?

The three of us looks like we have been slapped by some strange unknown alien that just happen to land on earth from mars. Oh, MY BAD, aliens wont be that bad la. At least you know they will either abduct you or they will just go away or they will just be there.

That is my point. At the very least, you KNOW what the hell is going on. And you can do something about it.

But noooooooooo....

This did not happen in my situation. One word being said. And the two idiots expects you to know everything. Hello? We cant read minds mind you. If we can, we would have manipulate yours instead xp.

What frustrated me the most is, the two idiots cant simply make up their minds. First they give you the topic. They want this and that. Okay. Didnt mentioned how to do it so i do based on my own knowledge la duh~!

First stage analysis : Apparently what we did, was not what they want. What they want are something not too direct , something obvious, something common, something that would happen in your daily lives.

Special intructions : dont really need complicated slides. Just a few lines would do.

Result : my work terpesong. okay, Fine. redo.

Second stage analysis : Apparently what we did was in reference to what they said, but is still wrong because they feel that it is too vague, not obvious, not direct, too common, too small cases. (Hello??? isnt that what we did for first time?)

special instructions : must write the whole storyline in the slide. synopsis. etc

result : have to redo.

We were like wtf. First you said no this no that. After one U-turn, they suddenly said want this want that. Is this some kind of game? Are we in a middle of a game? Roll the dice and you move a few steps forward. Take a community chest card. Move back 3 steps. Go to jail. Is it like that? Is that how you control things?

I dont think it's very nice of you to say that "dunno whether you understand this language or not". SORRY lor, I dont know much about your kind of language. Eating and changing words here and there. I have to say it's very difficult to catch up and no one would be able to either(unless very proffesional people larr) . Since it's always changing, might as well give up and learn a new language where the rest of the world would know rather than only a couple of people understands.

Now i know and understands why my colleagues, wanted to quite ASAP.

hahahahah.

Yeah, i know we are not superior than you in terms of knowledge, experience, skills, judgement, talents. But at least can you show us the proper way of doing it? Redoing things are not fun, mind you. And it's not that we did cincai work. We did tried our best. And we merely doing things according to what you all said previously. And yet it is all wrong.

I guess we are not on the same page since we do not communicated in the same language(which sometimes i am glad) . I think i'm starting to feel grateful that i am living in a different world from you. I mean seriously.

However, until the time is up. I would still fulfill my role.

htc touch viva

2009-07-07T21:31:00.005+08:00

hey there,

it's been a long while ever since i got a new phone *ahem* htc touch viva. Was supposed to blog about it one or two months back. Well....i guess it's kinda hard to keep track when there's so many things going on in your head.

oops. Enough babbling.

It's been two months now and the phone still works okay for me i guess?

However, i still couldnt get used to the touch screeen system and text messaging stuff. I know. There's a variety of keyboards to choose from. However, there are also a lot of times when i ter-press a few buttons altogether. Perhaps i'm not touching it the right way though. Texting messages have been really slow due to that. And it's been happening so many times that i finally gave up and use the stylus instead.

well i guess i prefer manually type sms better.

Crossing the lines

2009-07-02T22:14:00.005+08:00

image credited to www.flikr.com

2/7/1988 is significant day for me. Know why?

Cause is my birthday (aduh, so muka tebal). But at least it’s over and I’m not that paiseh to say it. Hohohohoho.

Sorry for the slow updates. I’ve been waiting for all the celebrations to finish so that I can sum up everything in one post because I think it will be extremely cheong hei and tak habis habis if I blog each event individually.

So now moving on. This year’s celebration was extremely significant. It represent that I have crossed the lines, hence the blog title. No, I don’t exactly feel like an adult yet. I still feeling like a kid and acting like a kid (what? don’t give me that look la).

Anyway, had 3 wonderful celebrations with my family and friends. It’s been ages since I had been celebrating with my family. Normally it was just simple patting and wishes and a bit of cash. Nyehehe. Very happy.

Finally get to meet half of sot k gang and also vendetta’s group. Wah….it’s been so long. Nobody changed much though. I’m sure we will be a lil different the next time we meet up.

That’s all for the bday post!

Thank you all for the dinners, prezzies and wishes.

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Internship updates :

Another week done. We’ve been working for more than a month! Weeeeeeeee!!! Well if you see it that way, it is fast, but when you are in office with fewer things to do, you feel like you are waiting for something that seems to crawl towards you with a speed of 1kbs/3 hours and in the end never came, you would know that a day passes by slowly.

Internship has been slow these days. No current projects going on. And I’m more or less done with my proposals. Just left a little touch up will do.

Workload has been kind of slow. That’s not what is draining me though (it shall be reveal later on, I promise!)

Till then!!

Life updates

2009-06-29T21:03:00.002+08:00

I just watch transformers yesterday!!!! It was sooooooo awesome!!!

Yeah, i know i am suppose to blog about it yesterday. But due to some twisted memory, i have forgotten all about it and happen to remember only when i was sitting in office finding random things to do. (=_=)

The film was good. It's has been so long since i watched a decent movie. The action was good, the storyline was okay and somehow i think it got a little draggy towards the end.

That's not it. It seems like good movies tend to come when we are at our busiest time. You have ice age coming in, then the oh-so-delayed harry potter movie which ffk us last year. Cirque Du freak seems to have disappear from the coming soon list. Sigh...see what i meant?

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Last week, went to the boss's house to shoot a TV commercial. Saw a white wii!!!!

Cheh, it's not as big as i imagine it to be also. Just a small small console only. But seeing it face to face, just make my hands itch. I decided! i'll certainly get one! But first i need to cari sponsor dulu, the thing is quite the pricey.

And i got my paycheck today!!!! Now i understand the feeling of waiting for the month to end and seeing the cheque landing on your hands. After 1 more year, it'll be permanent as i would be graduating soon. Before that happens, let's enjoy enjoy enjoy to the fullest first =)

Internship weekly dose (5th week)

2009-06-28T22:17:00.004+08:00

Fuh~

Another slow week ended. There's nothing much to blog about really for now (most of the things cant be mentioned here. For the sake of safety i shall seal it in my pile of memories for the moment) .

Just that another week had passed and this coming week marks the end of june whicccccchhhhh is kinda an happy occasion. Know why?

End of the month is where pay checks come in! Woohooooo!!!

That's it for internship. Yeah, i know. Posts about internship is getting shorter week by week. What to do? Working is suppose to be a routine thing. lol.

Kay, enough of that now seriously. I noticed that i've been blogging about internship only for the past few weeks which is kinda unhealthy.

So now, yes now, finally i have some adventures to share besides some daily boring workplace stories. Okay, okay straight to the point.

I finally met with kang's bf after they have been dating for like one year? =.=

Ahem, i know i'm kinda slow. But hey...who cares???

Anyway, we went to pavilion today, because kang's bf has never been there before so we brought him there. Had a wonderful meal of sushi and jco donuts for tea time. I got a *cough* fantastic *cough surprise ( in which i would only reveal later) thanks to the horny twins ( you know who you are)

There's one conversation that disturbs me greatly :

Kxx : booboo, have you grown fat?

booboo :........ ( izzit? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!) er...oh yeah...i guess...i've....been sitting a lot in the office lately.

Kxx : No wonder. Your face looks a bit round-ish now.

booboo : $%$@%£$@$$%@%$%@%$£$!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!! T.T

i think it's time to go for a diet. Yeah i must.

Internship weekly dose (4th week)

2009-06-21T11:52:00.005+08:00

Is it just me or blogger has been acting weird lately? Somehow whenever i click on the create post button, it directs me to a blank page. I have to go through edit post and click on the new post then only this "create post" thingy pop up.

Sigh...of all the times i dont feel like updating, nothing went wrong. When i feel like doing so, it didnt work out right. Darn it. Guess I'm a regular customer to this kinda luck.

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There you have it. Fourth week of internship. Gone like that.

I'm not going into details. Just a few highlights. This whole week has been pretty slow, in which clients occasionally coming up to our office and we are pretty freak out like a bunch of mice against a few big shot cats.

Things are way different from what i expected from a production house. I expected large number of crews, build in studios, modern and trendy kind of office, macs etc. I expect that we would have a small part in scriptwriting. That is what i initially hope for.

But anyway the exposure is good. It'll let us know that this will be the kind of working environment in future. And help us to be ready for it.

Overall everything is still okay i guess? There are ups and downs, but of course that would be inevitable. The good part is that we are allow to contribute ideas, in which i think is a great honour and opportunity.

The bosses brought us to tenji japanese buffet on Friday for lunch. I was wondering "what's the occasion?". No pre production currently. Check. Production is done at the meantime. Check. We arent really involve in post prod. Check. Company anniversary. Check. Eh. Uncheck. Got so early meh? Impossible.

Then the magic word is here " Nothing comes with a free meal"

Aha....

"Please take out your proposal and do a presentation"

I swear that my jaw just hit the ground. But i think, i think laa, i think quite okay, though i can feel words are like over everywhere.

Then i was asked to come up with a proper proposal ( the one i have is incomplete) together with kevin and peitsan.

Phew~

*wipe sweat*

Dont frightened me like that please. I cant do a spontaneous presentation. It'll kill me. Well...i think it already did.

Interlude

2009-06-19T22:41:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling super duper happy now!!!!

Dont ask. Will let you know tomorrow =)

Internship weekly dose (3rd week)

2009-06-14T18:26:00.004+08:00

I'm pretty sure that I'm not suppose to eat pancakes in my room after my mother had finished vacuumed the floor. That explains why i have half of my face buried in the plastic bag while eating just to be safe.

Oh well. Hopefully nothing comes out of it. If not, there would be an ant hill in my room and mum will go nuts.

Oh..there's goes my 3rd week of internship. See how time flies??? I could still vaguely remembered the feelings i have before my internship starts and now it's already coming to the fourth week!

Working was just fine. I screwed up a little here and there. As expected from myself. Luckily my colleagues are kind enough to not blame me. But that doesn't mean i don't feel guilty. But what can i do? Gotta make sure i don't screw up again lo.

We are no longer as busy as we first came in here. After 3 shootings everything just slows down. But that doesn't mean that we are outta jobs. We have more coming in which is why we were asked to brainstorm to come up with ideas or something.

Now, i'm starting to appreciate fridays and the weekends. I finally understand why my mum refuses to go out during weekends. I know why she wants to rest at home. Because during those five days, you've been so busy working your ass off that you do not have time for yourself. Most routine revolve around waking up, going work, coming back, rest. It's the same routine over and over again and that is provided if you do not have any homework.

Sigh...our office would be moving to cheras (connaught i think) soon where i dunno where i would be. Transportation would be a problem. Imagine the long distance travels, the traffics and everything together. It makes me tired just thinking about it.

Anyway, i hope everything still goes smoothly. I will need that kind of luck a lot in the future.

Internship weekly dose~!

2009-06-07T13:25:00.004+08:00

There goes my 2nd week of internship.

Come to think about it, this whole week passed pretty quickly. I think it was probably due to the juggling between shooting and normal office days. Shooting pretty much takes up the whole day (that is if the you're lucky if it ends early).

We went shooting at two places, a 4 story bungalow in jalan cecawi and a 3 story bungalow in templer hills. I didnt take any pictures sadly. Will be uploading if i managed to get the pictures.

Shooting has been interesting and professionally done. There is no waiting and everything is pretty on time.

That's all for now. Actually got more things to write and i'm pretty sure you can guess it by now. Yeah, i'm lazy to go on.

xp

Internship weekly dose~!

2009-05-30T21:11:00.004+08:00

Finally I'm done with my first week of internship! I still have another 3 months and a half to go =)

This first week has been pretty eventful. Nothing much happen during our first day. The assistant producer brought us to the editing room to take a look on things. When we are back in our main office, we are roughly brief on the current projects, system of the company and all other related stuff. There are currently two projects (TVCs) that are in their final pre-production stage and another one (informercial) is coming up some time next week too. There will be 3 shooting altogether in the following week.

Currently, most of our work revolve around paperwork as in helping out our colleagues by typing word documents, doing slides, ah...you know...those office work stuff.

Second day was much interesting than the first. Know why? The chosen costumes did not match the director's imagination, therefore have to change the costume. And there was a final pre production meeting with the client the next day. So...everything has to be done on that night itself. And there's a lot of things that are undone which is why we have to stay back and help out. Due to that we get to eat free pizza. Boss belanja. It was 4.30am when we finished up everything.

The next day, we were allowed to arrive a little later than the usual working time. We were told that we can arrive after lunch...but not nice la. So we came a lil earlier...just in case.

Then we have a second meeting to discuss on how the whole scene is suppose to shoot, what do the talents wear, which talents, what kind of hairstyle, props. That is already the second meeting for these projects. We had the first during our first day. We didnt know we are involve though...until they asked us to join them.

The following day, we had another interesting event going on which is casting. During this time, we have to take photos and video of the talents. That completed, we are to ask the talents to change in the require clothes and again take photos. The photos and videos are then to be stored in the computer for the director to select the most appropriate cast. The talents this time are all kids. Some cute cute 1, some shy shy but some...fuiyoh..got attitude one le. Attitude as in like those kind of celebrity style. Dont play play.

Yesterday was considered most relaxing day as there was nothing much to do. Ah yes, we had our third meeting for the week. Yup the 3rd meeting mind you.

Anyway...it was pretty fun la. The people are nice. They joke around and when it comes to work, they are all very serious. There are two colleagues who dont really eat. They can go on working long hours without eating. During this whole week i only saw them eating twice. The rest of the time they are just staring at the computer, answering calls and writing stuff. I really salute them.

And....... i just got my paycheck today! Well...i didnt expect my boss to pay me soooo soon. Or should i say i wasnt expecting my boss to pay me for this week of work. I was expecting the salary to come next month instead. Oh well...i'm happy! At least it's better than nothing.

My working time is suppose to be from 10 - 7pm. But currently this week, all of us have OTs. The time is juggle between 9-ish or 10-ish before we are allowed to go home. Currently we cant go home unless our work is done or our boss says so.

Next week we have three shooting altogether. The timing will be entirely different. I only hope i dont mess up and give trouble to others or be in their way.

*clasp hands and prays hard*

Cooking Attempts ^^

2009-05-22T12:30:00.009+08:00

It has been what...five days since i had updated my blog. What i have been up to? Been gaming, eating and more eating? Yes, i know I'm will get fat faster like this. Well, better enjoy it then. Since i will have not much free time next week onwards =p

Hc was off on Wednesday. So she decided to make.....

Lamb chop! Finished with a touch of special mash potatoes ( potatoes, mustard, mayo, pepper,etc), baked tomatoes and green veggies (I dunno the English name for it though). The taste is good, but the texture is kinda tough. Sis says it would be a bit raw if she don't cook long enough. True though, mine was a bit pinkish, somewhere near the bone area. But overall it was good! Tee hee!

I like the mashed potatoes the most! It has a kind of sour, creamy taste with an extra touch of pepper. Soooooo Yummy!! *slurp*

Kuddos to Sc and Eugene!!

Hmmm...seeing all those mouth watering thingy kinda prompts me to cook too. lol. Guess what?
I have been learning how to cook these few days. I'm pretty surprised myself too. Normally i would just go around talking about it and ended up NOT doing anything at all.

Since i have 3 great chefs at home, might as well learn a bit and there. Let's see what i have done so far :

Crepe! It's a banana and Nutella crepe topped with Hershey's chocolate sauce. Go Google it if you don't know what is it.

First attempt was considered pretty failed. Though the appearance is a pretty shade of golden brownish, the texture was quite tough as i fried it for too long. It is suppose to be soft and chewy.

Second attempt was better, but it went out of shape when i tried to flip it (koyak-ed halfway through the frying =.= You are suppose to have a nice rounded shape like a roti canai, so that you can fold it nicely. oh well.)

I couldn't really get the shape right though, cause you have to pour the dough in the pan and move the pan a bit so the dough reached all sides of the pan. After a few more tries, i finally got it. Not perfect la of course. If I'm that genius, i can sign up for culinary arts already xp

Third attempt was finally better (at least there's successful one v^^v)

Of course couldnt have done it without the help of great chef, Sc.

Up next :

Fettuccine Carbonara! Cooked with mixed cream and Parmesan cheese, bacon, wild mushrooms, onions and finished with a touch of the green veggie above ( dunno what's the name for it).

It goes extremely well for this, i suppose? It is not as difficult as i think it would be. Of course like i said, i couldn't have done it without the help of great chef, Sc.

So that's all for now. Hopefully, i would be able to cook more stuff in future.

See ya (lol, sound like a tv cooking program =.=)

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Credits to Hc's facebook photos and sc and hc for editing the photos

Some things are meant to be forgotten

2009-05-18T22:38:00.004+08:00

I let go a few things. And i was wondering why am i so foolish to hold onto something that is so negative? I bet there's some truth in the phrase "everyone would like to think themselves as the most pitiful person" and i think i fall under this phrase for several if not many times.

I think my resolve and motivation has been stronger before. There are a lot of things that i have missed.

Regret, is definitely not something that i wish to have. Even pain or suffering is even better than regret. Time may not wait. But time can heal sadness. But not for regret. It cant be undone, repair and start anew.

Thinking too much is a waste of time. Why not concentrate on the present and try live to the fullest?

Life is short.

Absence

2009-05-13T01:44:00.003+08:00

Will be going back hometown later.

Internet connection is not very accessible so , if anyone sends any msg through email or leave any comments in the blog, I would less likely reply you.

Anyway, hope to see you soon.

Till then, happy holidays for those who still have holidays and good luck to those started internship early.

Hope everything goes well..

Byez~

"Sweet & Spicy"

2009-05-12T18:10:00.005+08:00

When sweet and spicy potato chips are mentioned, one will automatically thinks of Thai flavours, extra hot, chilly and tomato. heh.

Wait till you see this......

Enjoy =)

Drop dead

2009-05-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

The last time i had this freaking fear was when i was going for a mass media subject in which my coursework are terribly low. And i am feeling the same thing now. I read what i have ( hopefully it's enough) and hope it stays in my head.

I really hope that i would be able to answer the questions tomorrow or I'll be doomed with a C (that is if I'm lucky enough) or most probably be awarded with a D ( Noooooooo~!)

*sigh*

Last one

2009-05-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

Phew~

Two papers are done. Needless to say, i screwed up both. It is one of those times, when you thought u have studied and prepared, then when you sit down and take a look at the question paper, you just have the urge to slam your face on the table. Yeap, that kind of feeling.

Hopefully, my answers are relevant and convincing enough for me to score As.

............

............

Okay, i shall not dream about it anymore.

Back to annoying IA~

sigh...the most troublesome paper of all....

End of the 3rd day of exam

2009-05-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

Today's paper was.....

.......

.......

.......

( i leave that to your imagination as to how you want to interpret and imagine it)

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Just completed the collection for twilight books! RM 29 for eclipse and RM 34 for breaking dawn. Got it from an mph warehouse sale which is from 29 April to 3rd May.

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Finaaaally three papers are done! But i still have another 3 to go....

(=_=)

Quickly finish la, so i can plan ( actually now already planning xp) how to spend my limited holidays~

Countdown to holidays =)

Collages oh collages

2009-05-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

I have a strong urge to create collages but i lack of pictures.

(=_=)

And i have to study because got exam tmr.

howhowhowhowhow?

Go back to study la duh!

End of another day

2009-04-29T17:48:00.003+08:00

Yay!!!!!
I'm done with exams!!!!
And that is only the second paper......

(=_=)

I have another four more to go, one on this coming Saturday.
Anyway, today's exam is not as difficult as i expect it to be. Phew~ what a great relief!
Nevertheless, I'm am not that confident to assume everything i write is correct but at least i know i didn't screw up that badly this time ( yeah, i screw up a bit today...damn me and my carelessness).

I hope to finish exam fast. Am already thinking of what to do with my limited semester break. Hmmmm~

End of day

2009-04-27T15:56:00.003+08:00

Yay!!!!
I'm done with exams!!!!
But that is only one paper........

(=_=)

The next paper starts on Wednesday and i know nothing of it. Okay la, not entirely nothing but about 20%?

I should be getting back to study sooon....but let me just relax for a while pweeease? I bet a little rest wont hurt much. Nyehehehe.

Top ten most popular doings during this study week

2009-04-24T01:45:00.003+08:00

Ranging from the most frequent to the least frequent :

Sleeeeep (yessss, i sleep more than i study)
Eat
Walk around the house
Serious Studying
Accidentally fall asleep
Looking for snacks
Facebook-ing
Studying....but dreaming at the same time
Check blogs
Play PSP

Short film

2009-04-22T14:41:00.003+08:00

Nah,

here are the links to our short film on youtube~

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

***

credits to nigel for uploading it on youtube

Closed

2009-04-18T22:45:00.002+08:00

This topic is official closed. I have read what you have said. I accepted your thoughts. I have said what i wanted to say.

With this, i mark this day as the official closing for that topic.

No more, should i care or should i bother to say something about that topic anymore.

To me, this day is the ending.

Chapter closed.

The Writing Spree

2009-04-17T01:56:00.002+08:00

Yes...

I noticed it today...

that during this semester besides switching between blocks, i have been doing some serious heavy writing.

This semester is the paperwork semester i suppose. I have reports, reports, scripts, scripts and the list goes on.

Yes, i do love writing but not to that extend.

My latest records are writing an average of 15 pages in 3 hours. Even I, myself are surprised that i can crap that much. Luckily it's a story. Fortunately there's a inspiration. Of course i couldn't have done it alone. Thanks to my friends, i manage to crap that much.

And it's not only the script, other reports too, i couldn't possibly have make it without my team member's help and support.

Now that I'm free (well not really, finals are coming pretty soon +___+) okay..shhhhh...

Coming back to "Now that i'm free"...

Hmmm...i can resume writing my short stories. No writer's block please~!

New blogger

2009-04-15T21:51:00.005+08:00

We told her to create a blog long ago.

She said she is too busy to write a blog.

We understand.

She told us that she commented on our blogs.

We told her to get one so that we can do the same.

Again, she said she do not have time to create one let alone to write in it.

We accept that.

We ask her whether will she create a blog.

She said maybe but do not know when.

We didn't ask her anymore after that.

Cause we know that she's very busy.

Then...

I got a msg from her.

xiaoxin says:
i blog

Welcome to the blogging world woman!!!

Unmotivated

2009-04-11T23:59:00.004+08:00

It's not that i want to be that way...well how should i put this?

Don't get me wrong...i don't feel like giving up.

I want to do more...but the thing is...it's kinda hard to accept that you work hard and you only get so little in return. Or sometimes you don't get any at all.

Well...i think i kinda cari pasal la. Was being over confident with myself. Knowing that me myself is not that good but still wanna prove something...i become like this. padan muka kau kau.
If i'm alone in this mess, i should very well said i deserve it. But there are other ppl in this too and i feel so baddddd for pulling them down.

Next time, i shall do things the simple way.

Always K.I.S.S

Back to work.

Mum's plan to get extra chicken

2009-04-09T23:26:00.005+08:00

It's the edible chicken mind you. Not that type of chicken...er...well you know what i meant.

Anyway, bacccckk to the topic, finally had the RM1 chicken from dragon-i. Mum had been talking bout that promotion for some time now. So we had decided to go tonight since we have 6 kaki.

According to the banner, the promotion stated that you can only buy the chicken if you have a minimum of 3 pax and above. But we have six people...so mum was saying....

Mum :

Why don't we split up? Make it 3 people each group so we can order another RM1 chicken. But we mustn't let them know that we come together. Why don't the first group go in first? Then the latter group will go in later? Then we can pretend we are some old friends or some relatives by waving to each other or go berchit chat for a while. In the end we will have 2 chicken.

Note :

Plan failed because we are not muka tebal enough to carry out this act. So in conclusion we only have one plate of chicken.

Bug off

2009-04-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

Nooooo

i'm not down with a bug flu. I think i have been infected with a supposedly clumsy bug. You see, my second sister has been complaining that she seems to hit anything that stands in her way. So i was wondering whether did she passed that bug to me directly or indirectly?

I hit the door when it was open.

i stumbled into the weighing machine on my way to the kitchen.

My pants tersangkut at the drawer's handle. And i hit myself at the cabinet.

I accidentally knock the chair with my toe.

Even when i sit still, i still hit the table when i try to reach for the mouse.

(=_=)"""""

*looks around*

*brush imaginary clumsy bug off hands and legs*

Hare (はれ) kumori (くもり) Ame (あめ）

2009-03-31T22:20:00.005+08:00

The weather these days have been quite temperamental, making changes according to its mood swings.

Sometimes the rain pours like never ending tears.
Sometimes the thunder and lightning are murderous.
Sometimes the clouds are too dominant, occupying most territories in the sky.
Sometimes the sun is too warm to be approachable.
Sometimes the weather just smiled during the day but shed tears during the night.

Sometimes the weather is just...just right and you felt like u really belong there.

Sora (そら）

2009-03-27T01:57:00.006+08:00

A endless blue sky.

A flower.

A patch of soil.

A bee.

***

Once upon a time, when the flower was a small little bud, it used to look up at the sky and gave a very friendly cute smile. The sky was happy too as it has been watching over the flower ever since it was a small seed. The patch of soil that the flower was living on was feeling happy too. Just like the sky, the soil had been there long before this little flower was planted.

As seconds turn into minutes, minutes into hours, hours into days, days into weeks, the little flower finally bloomed to the fullest. The sky was extremely happy yet sad at the same time. The soil on the other hand was feeling proud.

***

"How long has it been?" The sky wondered to itself. "When was the last time little flower smiled at me?"

The sky asked the same question to the soil but the soil hardly pay it any attention. The sky then ask the little flower aloud but was interrupted by the buzzing sound of little yellow bees. The sky wanted to protect the flower but couldn't do so as the distance was too great between them. To its horror, the little flower actually let the bee absorb its nectar. Worst still, the soil seem to support it as well.

The sky was undeniably upset.

Then an heavy thunderstorm came. The bee hid in the flower for safety, while the little flower remain vigilant to the soil. The soil returned the same gesture to the little flower. As the rain pours, the three of them look expectantly at the sky.

The sky was puzzled.

After the rain was over, the sky smiled at them. But they aren't being friendly. Instead of speaking nicely, they threw tantrums at the sky.

The sky was angry and hurt. But it couldn't do anything as it couldn't even reach them let alone comfort them. It couldn't control the sun nor it could make the rain disappear. It was just a sky. And now it cant even be itself?

Where is the logic?

Yes, the sky can watch over anything, everything at anytime or anywhere. But how much can one sky focus on? It cant be there because you simply wish for it. It cant be focusing on one thing when there are so many things under it.

The sky then looked at the flower, bee and soil. They are playing happily together.

The sky sighed. What is it going to do? What's there to change? After all its stereotypical job was to watch over everything.

As the sun comes out, the sky thought of an idea. If only it could blend according to the sun and the moon then it can be something different.

But what about the little flower and the soil?

The sky sighed again.

"But this is my life" the sky thought to itself. "But that is also my duty."

And so nowadays in the mornings, the sky tried to blend in with the enviroment with the help of the sun. In the morning, a shade of pink and purpleish sky can be seen. However, as the day slowly goes by, the sky changes to another colour accordingly.

The sky may not fully escape from its duty but at least its still have the freedom to do what it wishes and to be who it wants to be.

The End.

today ah

2009-03-26T17:04:00.002+08:00

Last night had a sumptuous dinner at tenji with hc and fes, sc and eugene, evelyn and roy. So full of raw fish. Yum Yum.

Slept late last nite...

Woke up late today...

Had nasi lemak for breakfast and lunch

.........

.........

.........

And have been siting in front of my com doing work since i woke up

(=_=)

It's a holiday where i'm suppose to enjoy myself after streanous weeks of assignments and mid terms. Nevermind, if it's MY work, then i dont mind spending the whole day to finish it.

what i should not be doing is to.....

cover up some stupid part where that *beep* person *beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeep*

Cis!

Towards a clear blue sky

2009-03-22T19:20:00.004+08:00

i guess you can call it an empty emotion

2009-03-20T15:59:00.003+08:00

Detached.
Try to detach.
Void all emotions.
Embrace neutralism.
Live in the gray world
- a place where black and white are not separated

2009-03-20T15:31:00.002+08:00

They didn't reject me.
They are kind enough to keep me there.
Should i say that I'm lucky?
Should i think that i am fortunate enough?
Did i betray anybody by accepting it in the first place?
She told me it was okay.
I felt her sincerity like she really meant it.
But to another, i don't feel anything from her. Probably she thinks that i shouldn't accept because that chance was meant to be theirs not mine.
And by doing so, i stole their rightful chance.

I know what it's like to be a burden.
I understand what it's like to be in a way.
I tasted what it's like to be not needed.
I do know what it's like to be ignored.
I know i shouldn't think like this.
I know i should wake up and think positively.
But do you think i want to think like that?
Do you think i want to compare myself all the time?
How would you feel if you are being compared from primary school till secondary school? Or even in tuition or curriculum activities? How would you feel if you're being reminded even when you do not want to listen to any of that?

i was wrong, i still am even now

2009-03-17T20:12:00.003+08:00

i am wrong and i still am.
Without realizing it, i have already in the process of becoming who i hate.
I hope i can still stop these changes.
And become a whole new person within.
Last week make me realized what is wrong and what is still wrong.
Slowly, i know i can still make a difference.

ignorance is bliss

2009-03-16T21:32:00.003+08:00

Memang. Now that i truly experienced it, it's really really true in some ways.
At least you be happier knowing nothing than having to know everything.

Enough said.

She and her

2009-03-13T20:04:00.004+08:00

She and her.

Whenever i see them together, i feel like an outcast. Like I'm not allowed to step into their territory. Nor i can interfere with their relationship. So i pretend that i don't really care, pretend not knowing anything, pretend to be okay with it.

Cause what's the point of me having to know about all these things? Is not like they will share it with me. What they know of, i don't know. What i know of, they don't.

She.

I don't really know much about her. Because the gap between us is too great. By the time, i entered primary school, she was already in secondary school. By the time i entered secondary school she was already graduating. So in truth, i don't really know her that well. All i know that she cries easily.

Her.

Her gap is smaller compared to she. So therefore, i feel as thought i'm closer to her. Her grades are good and she always have a lot of friends. I bet she always finds me a nuisance because i always trouble her, getting her late to school or a function.

But she and her always get along well. As far as i see, there is no argument or slight disagreement between them. Even if there is, it is just like a joke between them. Whenever they are together they are laughter and smiling faces. Whenever i'm with them, i just didn't feel right. It was as though i am not meant to be there. They have a lot of friends that both of them knows but i know only a slightest bit of their friends. That is if i did follow them out though.

They can always make my mother laugh while i made her cry and stuff. They can always make her happy while i made her frown. They can always make the situation more cheerful and relaxed while i always made it tense.

During annual dinner, people will often ask them about medicine and health problems while i be just a decoration in that event.

Most people remembers their names, but they forgotten mine.

My mum said something to me which i believe she will never say it to them.

I don't deny that I'm envy, jealous and sometimes hates them because no matter what i do, i just cant be better than them. I'm trying to catch up with them but it seems like it's not possible at all. I'm angry and hate myself for being so forgettable. Can someone explain to me why is it always like that? Why am i like that?

oh shit, i'm losing it...

can someone help me please?

it's the same

2009-03-13T18:53:00.003+08:00

It's the same
It's the same same thing
At first i thought is the generation gap.
Now i'm sure.
It's not about whether you are related by blood.
It's about who you are.
10 years ago...
I feel that I'm alone...
Now ten years later...
I feel pretty much the same.

it's gonna be a busy busy busy week

2009-03-09T23:45:00.001+08:00

It's going to be super-duper-busy-until-i-will-actually-becomes-zombie. No doubt about it.

Haiya if only our shooting week is on week 8 then we don't have to be sandwiched in between midterms and deadlines.

Anyway will start shooting tomorrow and hopefully everything goes well.

Okay, don't give me that look, i know it's a super short post. But but but i don't have time already lah...have to continue with my assignments at the same time reading notes. Talk about multitasking...hmmmm....

2009-03-05T13:56:00.002+08:00

I remember the days of summer
We were so close together
You were humming the songs of silence
Sweetly plucking the harp of wind

Every moment was sacred and mystic
We were near to the shore of eternity
The days are gone, and will never come back

You were a half of me...long time ago

Life can never be perfect without you
But I'm still on my way to the future
For I remember your sweet song in my mind

To the lost horizon, I'm calling your name
Again and again

Though the night is so dark
A new dawn is so close to me
Sun will come and shine on all seeds of hope
Bud and bloom...

I remember the days of winter
You were sitting beside me
All alone in the shuttered places
We were waiting for thawing day

Every moment was sacred and mystic
We were hoping the night was eternal
The days are gone, and so far away
I'm still singing your sweet song for long
Long windy nights...

Xenosaga II Movie Scene Soundtrack

workload list

2009-03-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

screenplay writing (90% complete)
short film production ( shooting week haven start)
inter ad ( haven start)
multimedia broadcasting ( computer stuffs - wip, report - untouched)
crm second assignment (untouched)
media planning (wip)
story writing competition (wip)
3 midterms to go

T.T

No rest day meh?

Sit and calm down

2009-03-04T00:44:00.003+08:00

I need to sit down and stay calm. Noooo, I'm not physically moving around. But i guess my emotions can say that much. It's like a whirlpool in there plus with the additional thunder and lightning and of course boundless worries. I feel like i have a washing machine fixed inside of my body.

(=_=)

Nah, I'm not pacing around the house worrying bout my mid term tomorrow. In fact, I'm more anxious of my internship. Yeah, yeah i know. I've been speaking of this issue for almost 2 weeks now. Cant really help it though. It stays and it's really really persistent and consistent.

I guess it's about time that i control myself a bit. Been getting more and more depressed each day. Can you imagine of sending out emails for a few days but there is no replies? Or that you friend actually send later than you and managed to get it first? I been wondering whether's it's the face problem now.

Okay. Stop.

i'm not suppose to rant anymore on this topic. What i am suppose to do is to prepare for the worst ( hopefully i mean hopefully utar managed to turn out reliable). And i should focus those energy in finishing my current assignments and story. I have a story competition deadline to beat. I have assgmts deadline. I have mid terms. I have short film production.

But still, there's no harm in hoping for a miracle to happen. If i get it well i am extremely grateful, if i do not....well let's not get into that point. You dont want to know what i will become.

Seriously speaking, i dont feel like giving up. So let's keep my fingers cross and hopefully i would get it.

My latest target :

Is to be able to write about almost anything as in tvcs, movies, dramas, commercials, news and so on.

Of the torture of waiting

2009-02-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

Man, i'm freaking out. I dont feel that well anymore ( not the "well" in health). I dont feel at ease but surprisingly i still can eat and sleep well.

Internship, internship, internship

I cant get this word out of my head!!! Argh!!!!

I thought about it when i'm eating, when i'm doing my assignments, when i'm showering even when i'm playing dota!

Seriously, I dont want utar send me to places i dont like.

I hope i get a good reply soon. After all as they said, good things are worth the wait right? Let just hope that it's true.

Or else i mati la.

Of insecurities and lack of confidence

2009-02-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

How you ever wonder what's the difference between "you want to do it" and "what you can do"?

Recently, i been pondering of those kinda things. Don't ask me. I just don't know.

I'm worried.

I don't know what i am capable of seriously.

Communication wise. Not really good.

Graphics wise. Not good either.

Language. Average only.

Creativity. Depends on time and situation.

It all comes down to nothing?

Sigh~

Shall i participate or not?

2009-02-20T23:03:00.004+08:00

hmmm.....

*ponders deeply*

Vday

2009-02-14T19:30:00.007+08:00

Nah, i didnt celebrate. I just want to wish everyone a happy valentine =)

Also here is a special valentine dance performed by both calvin and hobbes :

enjoy =p

Sushi Trip

2009-02-13T22:06:00.006+08:00

Well...went to mid valley today after class for the sake of sushi (suppose to do my assignments but oh well....) I didn't know at first because initially i thought my sisters are just going to Mv for hair dye and a little bit of shopping as well. Then my mother broke the news to me indirectly. She sort of invited me to the outing. That was when my eldest sister had a weird smile on her face.

Anyway, let's get back to the story, we are suppose to meet one of my eldest sister's friend for lunch. Kononnya on today she had to belanja a friend. Soooo...she might have to spend more for additional mouth i guess????

So we went to Yuzu Japanese restaurant @ the gardens. The atmosphere was pretty good. Nice furniture and service was excellent.

The food was quite good but we only ordered sushis...didnt really touch on the set meals as we all are feeling quite full. Anyway here are the pictures :

The 25 things you don't know (and perhaps should know) about me

2009-02-12T18:34:00.002+08:00

I didn't get tag directly, but from the way jojo had put it, it sounded more like i was tagged indirectly. Anyway here goes :

I get annoyed at little things. And i mean really little things
I'm pretty hot tempered all the time.
I have shark phobia. Still have though.
I am so damn lazy in everything...to the point that i sometimes feel very lazy to eat.
I'm a greedy person especially in food...hiak hiak hiak...
I can be calm and good mood but if you step on my tail i could be pretty mean and sarcastic.
I have extreme mood swings.
I cursed a lot
I love cheese, chocolates, ice cream and most of all I'm in love with Japanese food. *hint hint*
I love Japanese songs, those musical soundtracks ( that's why I'm so outdated in Eng songs and such)
I'm an otaku.
I hypo-contradicting. A lot too.
I get distracted easily even during conversations.
I get bored of something quickly.
I love games ( video, computer, console) and technology (computer, gadgets)
I daydream a lot. Anytime of the day except when i'm sleeping..duh!
I dont really know how to dress up femininely. Most of the time, i will just go with what i feel comfortable with.
I'm fashion blind. Matching colours is okay. Matching fashion is @@.
I didnt like things to be too troublesome because i'll get lazy even before starting to do them ( yeah, i'm a spoil kid)
I prefer to bottle up things instead of just firing them away. Dont ask me why. I dont really know either.
I love my freedom, space and privacy a lot.
I love to write more than talking....probably because i dont really get on well with people..sometimes...
Complicated stuffs such as maths, marketing, strategy...i absolutely hate that. I prefer a more direct approach like language or common sense.
I like to pretend that i dont care...sometimes...
I love travelling and would like to stay somewhere else from malaysia in future.

Well that's all for my part. Now comes the tagging part. Should i tag anyone? Nah, i just leave it to you la. If you feel like doing after reading this post, then go ahead. If not, no matter =)

***

Happy valentine's day everyone!

Remember, you dont need to be in love in order to celebrate.

Ponders....

2009-02-12T18:23:00.003+08:00

Okay, after that disastrous japanese post, i have decided to stick to English instead. You see, the point for writing japanese is to practice using it so that i can confidently post something confidential on this blog. Somehow it didnt work out, as my sisters has miraclously found their way to read it by translating with dunno what.

(=_=)

So the plan to write in japanese failed apparently. I shall say no more.

***

I'm seriously waiting for short film to finish. After that hopefully everything is being cleared out. But that have to see whether everything goes well or not right?

And before that, let me get through crm first.

T.T

ねがい

2009-02-10T20:19:00.004+08:00

こんしゅうのどようびはバレンタインです。わたしもにじゅさいです。

わたしわしれたいですあいのきもち。

ことしのバレンタインそしてきょねんのバレンタインおなじですか？

わからない。

only time will tell

***

Note: cacat japanese

i wonder.....

2009-02-09T14:02:00.004+08:00

It just me or my luck is always like this?

Why on earth do i always get chosen for the first week?

Speaking of which, it was the same for public speaking too right?

はあああああああ〜

A Simple Lesson

2009-02-04T16:27:00.002+08:00

Lack of equipment
Not enough time
Unbalance group members
Utar has no choice

Seriously all these made me wonder, is this what we are paying for?

First there's a problem with lack of equipment. Isn't that another way of saying there are too many of us? We are also told that those who are taking broadcast journalism are going to use the equipments as well. Okay, that is a conflict but shouldn't we be given the priority first seeing that it is our major?

Noooooooo. The tutor and lecturer just have to force us to shoot on week 3 which is the CNY week simply because there arent many equipment+ not enough time + not enough editting machines.

I dont know about you. You will probably think that there is no other choice but to do this. I disagree. Can you imagine that we are paying so much but in the end they just said there's not enough equipment?

Not only that, even our short film project which initially was 14 members a group is forced to form at least 18/19 per group. We were told that we only have six cameras available not 8. 18/19 people in a group...how much can everyone learn when there's only one camera for each group?

It all comes to one final answer :

Utar has no choice after all.

Yeah right.

Variety posts

2009-02-03T23:21:00.006+08:00

On that particular morning when tp came for her usual visits, we settled in Sun Wong for lunch. After the usual brunch, we decided to use the toilet in the restaurant as the one in pg block was particularly very wet and water was leaking from above.

That was when i was locked in the toilet.

Tried turning the knob for a few times but the latch doesn't seem to move in as you turn it. So wawa went and get a lady and she said that it was impossible that it cant be opened. And so she tried and failed apparently. Then another lady came in ( i was guessing, but dunno whether got or not la...cause i cant see what) with a key trying to open the lock.

I tried telling them again and again that it is not because of the lock but the latch. But somehow the more i talked the more times they tried to unlock it with the key.

(=_=)

And sooooo, i took a picture of the latch from the inside and bluetoothed to wawa. Then she showed it to them. Then they are only convinced it wasn't because of the lock but the latch. And finally they called one of their male colleagues to break down the door. After that, the lady who tried to unlock it previously, tried the knob again.

(=_=)

okay, nevermind. I'm only glad that i was out of the toilet.

***

images credited to wikipedia

Thoughts:

Both movies are pretty okay eventhough i feel that AWEL was a lot better in terms of humour and plotwise. I feel that both movies are not worth watching in cinemas and they don't really deserve a re-watch.

Actually i was hoping that wedding game would be much nicer than AWEL. But it turns out that AWEL is better than wedding game. If you ask me, i would say wedding game was sort of very predictable. If you want to know, just go watch it or ask *cough* somebody *cough* else. I don't want to have the honour of spoiling it for you unless i'm being very cheeky. hehe.

***

Awkward, Awkward, Awkward.

Enough said.

Sooner or later the truth will be reveal.

Cny - okay not so bad after all

2009-02-03T00:32:00.004+08:00

Finally back from hometown last thursday and i was and still in cny mood. Cant blame me though, i need time to get into momentum. Even a car needs to get their engine warm up before being driven right? Similar concept and solid reasons not excuses mind you.

Previously, i was saying that cny feels like any other day right? Well...i found out that it was more lively back in hometown (the massive lot of people, weird timing jams) which was kinda expected seeing that it was a small town if compared to kl. At least the mood is there. Kl...on the other hand...has the look and the atmosphere but not the mood.

Anyway, cny was a little unusual this year, met up with pinkie isabel and catch up on gossips, banging and more banging. She's still quite the same as i remembered her. Kononnya she said her banging skills had improved compared to last time. I was quite proud of her but she said she only sticks to one topic only. Oh well...isabel..is isabel after all.

The later in the evening, my family went to one of our aunt's place to have steamboat on new years eve. Usually, we tend to go there for a few nights at least. However, this year we settled on eating home cooked food instead.

Honestly speaking i didnt really officially hang out until the 3rd day of cny. We are suppose to have a brief yamcha session until one of us suggested that we should go house visiting. And so, can say that everything went along the flow, we visited one house after another. I feel as if i was in some kind of multiracial rombongan when suddenly we decided to meet up with natasya and guna.

Speaking of weirdness, i discovered that this year, the gang seemed to be more interested in taking pictures. Usually, whenever someone holds a camera the group will either dispersed quickly or pretend to be looking elsewhere. I guess the time to be camera shy had faded as we grow up?

It's hard to be just ourselves

2009-01-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, what is the best way to settle things?

Sometimes i wonder, is the best way i think of is the most appropriate solution?

Sometimes i wonder, what will my solution bring? Will it be unchanging or nasty or good?

Sometimes i wonder, what people will think of my solution? Will they be neutral or biased or supportive?

Sometimes i wonder, will i be right if i were to put this solution in action? Or will i be wrong? Or will i still ponders about the answer until i try it out?

Sometimes i wonder, why the harder i try, the more damage is done? Should i not continue my effort anymore?

Sometimes i wonder, why is that what i have done is often misunderstand by people? Should i keep quiet or continue trying?

Sometimes i wonder, why not pleasing everyone is a wrong thing to do? It's not something that i don't want to do, it is just an impossible task to achieve.

Now i know, it's not a matter of trying or coming up with solutions or putting everything into consideration.

Simply because, people don't seem to get it or care at all.

cookie~

2009-01-22T14:37:00.004+08:00

Finally we let our tutor/lecturer see our scripts. Honestly, i didn't expect her to give such a big reaction. I thought the most she will say is "oklah." But this one is ah...her expression is priceless. She looked so genuinely shocked. I'm serious! And it happen so naturally. I don't know is it a good thing or a bad thing.

So, back to the topic, she chose 3 scripts which are frankie's, alwin's and nigel's. Now that is almost complete, we can get started on the drama scripts...nyehehehehe

***

This time for media planning, i get to work together with ruby, hwan mun and shi toh. Guess what is our product?

"Looks good kepoh phone"

Nolah...actually it was LG KP 500. It even had a code name entitled "cookie". No wonder the fella at the mobile shop said cookie when i asked him about this phone. I thought he had some kind of slang that i didnt know. Luckily i didnt ask. If not so paiseh man. Ask about the phone then dont know the code name. See? Sometimes, it's a good thing to keep quiet.

We are suppose to do a research about our product and do an evaluation on it. I had done some brief research and found out that it just released last year. Was announced in september and was released somewhere in december. Thank god the phone we are researching got some class in it, not some chiplak plastic phone.

Anyway, here are some cookie pictures for your reference:

images credited to lge.com

Specs :

Quadband GSM (850/900/1800/1900), GPRS/Edge connectivity
3″ 240×400px 262K color TFT display/touchscreen
3 mpx (2048×1536 px) camera with 12 fps video recording
Virtual on-screen QWERTY keyboard
FM Radio
Built-in motion sensor
46 MB of user memory
microSD memory card slot
Bluetooth A2DP, USB
900 mAh Li-Ion battery with 210 min talk and 330 hrs stand-by time
Dimensions: 106.5×55.4×11.9mm
Weight: 89
3G, wifi, gps, flash, divx playback and auto focus are not included

specs taken from unwiredview.com

CNY : feels like any other days?

2009-01-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

If no one mentioned anything about CNY, i still be thinking of going for lectures next week. Is it just me or it seems like the cny mood is really really low this year? There are not much decoration in shopping malls but they frequently play the music la. Save cost perhaps? Aiya...the decorations also use the previous year wan...i think.

I only managed to get 3 new clothes and 1 pair of new jeans for CNY. It doesnt seem like it's enough. But it's not like i'm going to change a new pair every hour of the day right? So i guess, it's better i saved the money for something else. *hint* *hint*

I dont know why, i dont really seems too eager to celebrate the festival this year. Maybe because we receive disturbing news about our assignments (until now still haven gao tim about the grouping thing, how are we going to start leh?), piles of work that never seemed to lessen, and the constant pressure of date lines.

Haiyo...why this year like that wan?

MIA to NIA

2009-01-21T00:51:00.002+08:00

I noticed i have not been *cough* blogging *cough* for like how many days? I didn't forget about this blog honest! I visited it every 2 or 3 days but the urge to post something faded?

Okay another reason was probably because i was busy, you know with variety of stuff. This is only the 2nd week of my semesters, i felt as if i was already in the middle of the semester. 6 subjects. It's all about do it properly or die.

And...the lectures this time are all pretty stoned. I couldn't find a anymore proper word to describe it. It was quite disappointing, seeing there's screenplay ( currently my favourite subject), tv production, so it should be pretty interesting right?

Nooooooooo

It wasnt at all. Why? because the lecturers sort of spoil all the fun. First there's not many equipment, then lack of time, grouping problems this that, this that, this that. They even told us we might be shooting next week, which is cny week. Can you imagine?

And to think that this happens to us when we are students...if employees...no offense i can understand why the company needs to get going even if it's after a festivals. Lack of equipment is not really our fault. The way they put it as though there is lack of equipment because there are simply too many students. At the end of the day, none is confirm. Not even the basic requirement for the assignment which is forming a group

Sigh...

Grrrrr

2009-01-11T13:52:00.003+08:00

I.Hate.This.Semester's.Timetable.

This gotta be one of the worst timetable utar can ever offer. Half of the time we are spend switching between blocks for classes. In fact, i think most of our time will contribute between walking to pg from pc and from pg to pc.

The timing is not so bad this time. The only troublesome thing is that i have class on Saturday on midday at 12-2. Exactly midday. *Sigh* can we just move the sat class to Friday? After all we only have on class on that day?

The only thing that troubles me the most is the place. And it's like switching class after one another. If it's very very very near like the building next door i probably wouldn't mind. But it's a lil distance away.

Have you noticed that utar's timetable ALWAYS have flaws? be it exam's or normal classes? It's like it HAS to have something that is not right.

*sigh*

I hope we can change it soon....

I'm only a writer

2009-01-07T20:23:00.005+08:00

I'm only a simple writer who holds no deep knowledge or accurate common sense. I deal in the politics of words...of human experiences....of dreams....of sadness. When I'm at my best, my pages laugh, dance and sing and they also sulk and cry. When I'm at my worst my pages are lifeless as they wait impatiently for me to make them come alive.

In their eyes, I'm a painter, I'm a composer, I am a director. I can be a patriot. I'm the enemy. I declare wars and and sometimes i hide from it. I'm able to be a tender lover but also a ruthless killer. In those pages, where words are the world, i can be anything.

It's a world filled with uncertainty, unpredictability....with blinds spots and dead ends...with straight lines which out of nowhere that can suddenly change direction.

It's a whirlpool of ethics and erotica....pathos and pleasure. And this is where the writer stands...in this middle of chaos, havoc and confusion like a sponge being soaked and squeezed.

Once you have calmed down, once you have clear your thoughts and for the first time you are ready to be sucked into this world of imagination...you face a constant dilemma of values. So consistent and persistent that is, you will be force to stand by your values or ride in the bandwagon.

This is the writer's world....where reality is twisted and forsaken...where daydreams are born and realized...where creativity and imagination are the roots of an unshakable passion.

This is where my passion grows...this is how i come to love writing.

Results are out

2009-01-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

I got a B for public speaking and an A- for MMDA.

(=_=)

I was really really really hoping that i can managed to squeeze through and get an A/A- for public speaking. MMDA got an A- was really.....unexpected. I'm being serious here. This is the first time i really admit that my craps (got such word?!) are full of illogical stuff. Why la cannot let me get an A for ps meh?

Two years ago, i took the same subject and got the same result. Now, i took the subject again and got the same result also.

Boooohooohooo....does that mean that i'm not fated to get anything above B?

*sigh*

I'm still grateful that i didnt get any Cs though.

Story time

2009-01-05T12:50:00.002+08:00

Just watched bedtime stories with the sot k backsides. Actually we watched it a few days ago already. But due to my stiffness of not blogging for quite some time, i didn't know how to start. Yeah, i know. So damn lame. (=_=)

Overall the plot/storyline was quite average to me la. It's is no doubt funny but i feel that it is actually still a bit flat despite the frequents humour and a bit of other things. Unrealistic should be the word. And we all know most Disney movies carries that element within them. But somehow this movie feel really nostalgic. It touches on childhood i guess, a part in which i have grown out of it.

Okay, i shall stop babbling before this post become meaningless.

Blog reactivate

2009-01-02T22:55:00.006+08:00

Yes!!! I'm finally back!!! But not soon enough to make a last entry in 2008. Well..i guess i don't need to worry about not posting it because there seems to be several blog posts on my blog list to remind me of the coming of the end of 2008. Don't be mistaken. 2008 was a good year for me. Not too great but good enough for me to recall back every now and then.

Anyway..i am official reactivating this blog now that I'm back after disappearing for more than a week. Not much happen though in S'pore. It was a okay trip. Was given 2 pairs of pants and t-shirts and a mountain of food.

Macky is back after being admitted to maccity hospital for more than a week due to corrupted RAMs.

Attended a new year party at weiyuen's place on the 31st and 1st.

My dad and grandma is up here which results in me sharing a bed with my mum.

I spend the 2nd day of the year catching up on the fanfics, manga, anime and other random stuff.

My external harddisk is home too. Brought back several psp games to try out.

Have been thinking to buy a ps2 or a wii. Haven decided yet. Have to raise funds first. Donation anyone?

Uni will resumed in a fortnight's time. Have to give some consideration on internship. Hell, what a headache!

With things started to come pouring in, it's gotta to be new year. A new start as what they usually say. Well..let's just hope thingd turn out okay this year...if not better.

Happy New Year everyone!

Hope 2009 will full of wonders and less chaos!!!!

Inactive from now on

2008-12-21T04:27:00.004+08:00

Went and watch "the day the earth stood still" in 1u on Friday sementara to celebrate mummy winx's birthday.

Btw...

Happy belated birthday winx!

Coming back to the topic, the movie was quite monotonous, flat, and boring. Felt quite dissatisfied after watching it though. I'm serious! Look here, Keanu reeves is in the show. The title sounds good. The poster look nice. And the description said that it's an alien invasion kinda thingy. Obviously it has to be somewhat special right?

But noooooooo, the movie just has to slapped us with beautiful effects but less content. I mean, I'm sitting there waiting for something to happen and it just didn't. So overall rating I'll give a 4/10.

After that, went to NZX full house for dinner. Full house was overall a nice place to eat. Wait, dont get me wrong. I meant the environment was great. The place was decorated with a cute mini cooper and it gives you a sense of garden weddings. However, the food is only so-so. And the price is expensive too. Never, never, never try to order the spagettis. They come in small porportion. If you are a light eater, it's most probably enough for you. But even so, i would prefer you to go for something else instead.

After dinner, went to walk around the place and visited this disney place (forgot what's the actual name for the event). Paid about Rm10 for the entry ticket and started to explore/take pics/play games and so on. Oh ya, the entry ticket can also be used for redemption, e.g mug.

My friends would be having a year's end and new year's party on the 31st and 1st though. Pretty sad to say i might not be joining. But then again, i'm not sure. My blog will be inactive for several days as i wont be around for a while now.

Anyways,

take care!!!

Merry xmas and Happy New Year!!!!

Midnite outing

2008-12-18T17:39:00.006+08:00

Presenting....

pictures credited to girlspic.blogbus.com

Went out with jazs, wawa, frankie and chicken to watch the movie IP man last night at 11.30. But we only went in at about 11.45 i think.

I only got 2 words to say about this movie:

"Must watch!"

The kung fu stances are all great!It just leaves you hungry for more!

The plot/storyline is nice too!!! Heck i might even buy the original DVD (providing if it's cheap. 20-ish i can still consider)

Ahhh...i feel like wanna watch again. *hint* *hint*

^^v

Memorable phrases quoted from Utar lecture notes (cont)

2008-12-17T01:13:00.006+08:00

There's more...surprisingly...^^

6. Lecture 5 - image

"the computer screen is where the action is"

Hello, if you aren't looking at the computer screen then where would you be looking at? Don't tell me, people are so blinded that they will mistaken a whiteboard for a computer screen?

"How you choose your colours and fonts?"

Seriously, you don't even need to install any complicated softwares to know how to choose colours and fonts la. Or are you trying to tell me you didn't use a computer before?

"A lossy compression method is one where compressing data and then decompressed it retrieves data that may well be different from the original......"

Huh? So you compressed then later u decompressed? Hmmm...very tricky.

7. lecture 6 - typography

"In multimedia, there are words that will appear in your title, menu, navigation ads....."

Whoever will be so smart until they forgot to put a text title or putting text in menu and stuff?

"Multimedia gave you the power to blend text and icons"

Since when that multimedia gives power? I thought it is more than one media? I only know that multimedia application gives you an opportunity to do those stuff. They never mentioned that using that will give you a boost of power though.

"the main reason people surf the internet is to find information"

Ah...another misconception of the uses of internet. True we did use it to find information...but that isnt the main reason. Is using msn through internet consider finding information?

"screen readability, use the fonts : verdana/georgia/times new roman..."

Hey, i thought we are taught not to use times new roman in webpages?

8. Lecture 7 - navigation

"You are here : establish a home base and always provide a clear path to your destinations.."

Okay, i get the establish the home base thingy. But what does "you are here" meant? I'm know I'm here because I'm blogging bout this....

"Netscape isn't dead!"

Errr....thks for the additional highlight?

9. Lecture 8 -accessibility and usability

"Web accessibility also benefits others, including older people with changing abilities...."

Changing abilities as in? Transformation?

"why use the web?"

Do we really really really really need a reason for this?

10. lecture 11-digital audio

"the use of sound on the web"

You have a guideline on where to use multimedia. Now there's another guideline on the use of sound on the web. What's next i wonder?

***

And there you have it! The top ten most memorable phrases!

Wait, wait, wait...don't close this window first...

There's one more bonus phrase to add on...i awarded this slide as the champion la...

For those who have a copy can go to lecture 12 - future multimedia (last slide)

*drum rolls*

"Look into the future!

What can you see?

what can you do about it?"

Hmmm....

After 3 years of continuously reading lecture notes, I'm quite embarrassed to say that...i didn't know you can actually see the future by just reading slides...

So people...

You want to see the future right?

Get started by reading Multimedia design and application notes. Tell me if you did see the future at the end of the lesson though. Opinions and personal experience are welcome =)

Oh yes...do let me know if you want the slides or something...i shall send through the internet (see another reason for using the internet)

Good luck!

Happy seeing the future.

=)

Memorable phrases quoted from Utar lecture notes

2008-12-15T19:29:00.004+08:00

1. what is multimedia?

"Multimedia means more than one media"

And so? Multimedia refers to a lot of media right? Right. That doesnt sound very convincing isnt it? Basically, it's like putting an explanation for the sake of explaining. Dont tell me they copied the concept from multitask which literally means doing a lot of task at the same time. Hmmm....i wonder if they will give us full marks if we just write exactly like that for our exams.

2. Distributing media

"using physical media such as CDs or DVDs"

"CD-ROM is a compact disc read only memory"

"DVD-ROM is multilayered digitalized versatile disc"

Aduh, is there anyone out there in utar who still dont know what cd or dvd is?

3. Where to use multimedia?

"school, business, public places, home"

Oh boy, now there's even a guideline on where to use multimedia. Fantastic. (=_=)

4. What is javascript?

"javascript is NOT java"

Okay, so what IS javascript?

5. What is online?

"online = connected"

"offline = not connected"

Well yeah, i assume every utarians knew these 2 terms very well right? Unless they are really really illiterate which i highly doubt so.

And there you have it, memorable phrases from our brilliant lecture notes. I'm not sure if there's more. Havent finish reading yet. Or perhaps i didnt notice anymore because it's too common sense to be er...erm...ermh...noticeable.

Movie soundtracks

2008-12-12T18:45:00.010+08:00

Well, i never really a sucker for movie soundtracks. Even if i do usually it's only one or two songs which caught my interest. However this is the first time i have 2 albums! Both are from the recently broadcast movie : Twilight.

The songs are not particular great. Somehow i like them because these songs are able to generate the mood of the movie. It's like when you listen to this particular piece, you be able to recall parts of the movie.

And the genre of the songs are well balance. Not too heavy rock, not too moody. And I'm quite surprised to know that Robert Pattison ( Edward Cullen) had written and sung two songs for this movie as well ( i read this somewhere but don't know it's the truth or not la). He really didn't struck me as the singing type though.

Anyway, these are the list of songs for both albums in case you're curious ^^

Twilight original motion picture soundtrack (top pic)

1. Muse - Supermassive Black Hole
2. Paramore - Decode
3. The Black Ghosts - Full Moon
4. Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest
5. MuteMath - Spotlight (Twilight Mix)
6. Perry Farrell - Going All The Way (Into The Twilight)
7. Collective Soul - Tremble For My Beloved
8. Paramore - I Caught Myself
9. Blue Foundation - Eyes On Fire
10. Rob Pattinson - Never Think
11. Iron &Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth
12. Carter Burwell - Bella's Lullaby

Twilight the Score OST (bottom pic)

01- How Would I Die
02- Who Are They?
03- Treaty
04- Phascination Phase
05- Humans Are Predators Too
06- I Dreamt Of Edward
07- I Know What You Are
08- The Most Dangerous Predator
09- The Skin Of A Killer
10- The Lion Fell In Love With A Lamb
11- Complications
12- Dinner With His Family
13- I Would Be The Meal
14- Bella’s Lullaby
15- Nomads
16- Stuck Here Like Mom
17- Bella Is Part Of The Family
18- Tracking
19- In Place Of Someone You Love
20- Showdown In The Ballet Studio
21- Edward At Her Bed

If you want these songs...just leave message in the comment section =)

Pets and plants

2008-12-10T16:40:00.011+08:00

I think i have been saying this for the longest time already. And each time my thoughts are always rejected. Both places that i am staying doesn't allow pets. Don't say the place, even the owners do not allow pets saying it was troublesome and dirty.

i have always loooooonnnngggg to have a pet.

Not something soft and cold. Not hard and cold either ( i had enough of unwanted pests in the house). Not slimy and slippery too. Not green and passive also.

It should be soft and fluffy. Something active. Something like these :

all pictures credited to google images

I'm not entirely sure whether you can take a chipmunk as a pet. But imagine the wonders and the chaos if you can do so ^^

I'm a pretty racist person when it comes to pets. I like pets with nice colours. I dont like black colour animals especially black cats. They look so evil even if their fur shines in the day light. I like cute lil cats and dogs when they are babies. They are just so cute and cuddly.

Come to think of it, i'm not entirely a pet-less person. In fact, i have a few pets and they died and ran away...oopss...i should they swam away.

The first real pet i had was a pair of red-eared terrapins.

picture credited to the pet shop online

They died shortly after that. I dont know what happened T.T

Then i bought another pair of terrapins. Brought them up to kl for holidays and left them in the aquarium ( my uncle rears fish). Next time when i'm back, the whole aquarium is empty except for the 2 terrapins. Asked what happened. Been told that my two old good terrapins ate all the fishes as well as the fish foods.

0.0

Arent terrapins suppose to be herbivores?

Okay, put them outside in a those type of big dragon clay flower pots and filled them with water. By then they had already grown about 15cm long. Initially their baby sizes are around 5 cm. So imagine that.

One day, i got a call from my aunt saying that the rain was very heavily and the terrappins sort of swam away because the water overflowed in the pot.

Chadou.

So there goes my another pair of terrapins. And it happened on the day that i decided to give away my so called herbivourous pets to the temple.

(=_=)

Okay, fine. Nevermind.

Next stop i have another mouse pet. Actually it's not a pet la. My sister bought it for her experiments. After that then it becomes a pet because well...you cant throw it away nor u cant kill it so..the last resort was to keep it. lol.

This rodent of ours is very unique. While most mice have tails, this particular is tail-less. So if you look a far, you might mistaken it for a hamster instead. Furthermore, this pet of ours have a very interesting name.

Its name is kanasai.

Hey, dont give me that look. I'm not the one who named it.

Oh well, it died a year and a half later. It got real sick and yeah...died eventually.

It this some kind of weird sign saying that i shouldnt be allow to have pets? I hope not. I definitely want to have one.

And dont get me started on plants. They are just sooooo green and passive. Heck you dont even see if they are moving or growing. My mother loves plants. Yeah, it's nice and green. But dont you find it a bit too boring? I agree it is way more easier to care for than a moving animal. Honestly, i dont have any talent in caring for my plants.

Mum left me and my sister to take care of the plants because she went back to johor. A few days later, it started to get a lil yellow and brownish. And then one of the leaves dried up and was practically hanging like a dead fish. Several days later the same symptoms were seen on the rest of the other plants.

0.0

My sister did the watering. I did a little coz i forgot all the time and it still turn yellow-ish. While when my mum did the watering it didnt show any signs of going to die.

Dont say about normal plants...have you heard that cactuses died too? In my case yes.

Sis's bf brought back some live cactuses from cameron. A few months later....

The top cactus...well it looks like someone had sat on it. As for the bottom right, did you notice the unhealthy shade of yellow? It suppose to look like something on the left.

And now it's only left with 2 cactuses. Let's see how long it'll last =p

Boss sudah balik

2008-12-09T21:23:00.003+08:00

Alas, my peaceful week had come to an end.

After a week of absence, the boss of the house had come back yesterday. She brought back lots of goodies like hometown food.

*squeeeaaaaaallllls*

It's been ages since i last ate these foods. Even if i'm back in hometown, still got no chance to eat these foods. Know why? These places are too far to be reach by foot. Plus together with the weather and mafan-ness, the interest just died voluntary.

I will try to find pictures on the net regarding the foods i have mentioned. Again, due to my greediness, i ate the food without taking any pictures. I only remembered it after licking the plate clean.

(=_=)

oh boy...

All time favourite anime

2008-12-03T16:07:00.006+08:00

Animax just have the tendency to repeat nice animes shows frequently, don't they? And it didn't help much if they keep showing only one episode per series.

Been spending a few nights watching back to back episodes of undub slam dunk in Youtube. If not for animax, i would have been lazy to re-watch this wonderful piece of anime. You see, i had already watched the anime countless times and also read the manga for more than ten times at least but this particular anime just keeps on attracting me. You can never really get immune to it. At least, that's what i feel. I'm still have the same feelings now though.

pictures fr wiki and anime zen

I personally still think this is the best basketball anime series. You can really see the efforts being put into this animation. I like the most when they animate the shooting, dribbling, dunking and guarding scenes. No matter how many times of watching it, you still can feel the stupidity, humour and excitement. Unless you really hate basketball then i don't know la.

Anyway, if you just getting started on anime and don't know what to watch. Try this and you wont regret =)

Another outing

2008-12-02T20:16:00.004+08:00

pictures from wikipedia and some random forum

heh. Just watch another animation movie entitled storm riders : clash of evils with jazs and taipoh.

Thoughts:

For me, the animation along with the storyline and plots are quite okay. I wasnt expecting anything since i dont really know bout the storyline and stuff. The last storm rider movie that i watched was the one which came out in 1998. I love the fighting scenes and effects the most. So pretty. I dont really know how to put it into words. But it's quite different from animes like naruto and bleach.

Anyway, i find the flow was pretty smooth. The elements of fighting and romance are well balanced. And...

er...

i ran out of things to say.

It was a nice outing with great company. It would be nicer if my exams are earlier. Having 2 weeks of study break sounds so wasting. I would rather finish earlier and enjoy more.

*Sigh*

What to do?

It's utar

Cant get enough of vampires?

2008-12-01T14:38:00.007+08:00

Just watched twilight with the gang on Saturday. Love it! Been thinking of buying the book when i was halfway through the movie ^^

I had lost count when i last saw a vampire movie. Wait, is there one?

Anyway, i'm glad it's not the typical kind of vampire movie where good guys will destroy the bad monsters. I never like buffy the vampire slayer too much because i feel that each episode is quite routine-ish.

At least this movie is somewhat different. And no, it's not because of the good looking actors and actresses. I like it so much because it's more towards the perspective of a girl towards the vampire and also how she come to accept the reality. So it's pretty refreshing that it's not focus totally on killing monsters and stuff.

I didnt know twilight was so so nice although i still have a lil interest in the book beforehand. And that interest was diminished instantly when i heard that Miss Kang is holding onto jojo's book. You want to know why? Try being in line after her in borrowing books. You'll learn the reason involuntary.

You hear me Miss Kang? Please return asap so i can read it =p

hahahahaha

Absence

2008-11-26T13:01:00.007+08:00

Well, if you noticed, i havent been online lately and i also broke my record of blog updates-everyday. That is because after oh-so-long-of-using-macky, i decided to let it have a rest. The poor guy simply become emo after it gets too hotttttttt.

*shudders*

So scary.....

My foot.

Planning to bring macky back to apple store again and was hoping can get a new macky instead. My sista said her friend changed his iphone for a new one after having so many problems. That was uk. This is Malaysia. Do you think it'll work that way?

................

................

................

Let's just hope for the best shall we?

***

Updates :

Brought it back to the apple store and they ran a computer check up kononnya. Seems like the beeping sound and the restart problem are probably due to the RAM/motherboard. They are not so sure yet. If there is really a problem, they will change a new one for me according to them lah. So at meantime macky will be with them for quite a while, bout 4 to 5 days at least.

***

Well, sorry for the lack of presence in msn/skype because i was too busy er...erm...gaming. You cant blame me. I've been waiting for this game since march. The english version was supposed to be release somewhere in October but it got delayed until November. Now that it's out, i should play more so that i wont forsake the times i waited and also another 2 more hours of downloading the game. You see? I definitely should play more right?

Right.

That's why i havent been sign into msn/skype since sunday. Yeah, i know what you want to say. I can chat and play at the same time right? Yup, i can do that. But the game will lag. A lot. I dont like a lagging game. It's frustrating, nerve breaking and so on. I mean nobody likes a game that lags right? Get my point? lol.

Just give me some time, once the urge level has gone down and you be seeing me online-ing again. By then you already have guessed that i have either finish the game, put it on hold cause i got bored or i'm looking for another game to play.

In case you're wondering what game i've been playing, look below :

images credited to gamespot

Ya, ya...

i love harvest moon.

Shaddup, lol.

Chapter closed

2008-11-22T17:54:00.004+08:00

Impromptu, persuasive, demonstrative speeches are all done now. I should be leaping with joy. But somehow i feel a bit nostalgic. Probably because of the involuntary flashback of the past.

I remembered when i had my first public speaking class. Nerdy, quiet and shy, i am one of those people who attended the lecture class with my first uni friends, Tracy and an Indian girl whose name i already forgotten (paiseh). Just like any freshmen, we sat in the front rows and attended our very first lecture class and meet our very first lecturer, Mr Kuru.

I still remembered my very first public speaking assignment where i fumbled frequently with my words and where nervousness almost killed me. It wasnt fun. It was stress like hell. And i wasnt really comfortable with my topic and yet i have to pull through because there's marks involved.

My second presentation was worst. It was perhaps the most horrible presentation in my experience so far. I didnt practice, wasnt ready, and read from my slides. Mr Kuru was not happy. And so was i. I felt extreme regret. Cant help but keep thinking that I should have done better.

But i was glad to be given a second chance although the fear of public speaking comes first. It wasnt easy as you are constantly reminded of your poor presentation the last time and at the same time trying your hardest to perfect it. I fumbled a lot during impromptu and make frequent pauses. And i had to have cough on that day. Funny, i remembered i had cough too during my very first speech in foundation.

Oh well, at least this time i managed to set things right and proper. And i was very happy that i survived this course. Not the half-heartedly survival but the full, satisfied, proud survival.

***

Another good news is taipoh is back in town. It's just not the same without the old lady. Days without the office cleaner make me feel incomplete. Finally, she's back. But that doesnt mean she be spared from the how-many-months-of-not-banging-her. Still, i just glad that she's back.

***

I had finally put a proper closure to the whole issue. I am still feeling rather sad but content. At least i managed to voice out my thoughts. And i really glad that he fully understands the whole situation now. Things will not be the same as before. But i believe things will be better from now on. Let time play its part.

For now, this chapter is closed.

As for tomorrow, another chapter will begin.

I don't know how to say this to you but….

2008-11-21T00:30:00.001+08:00

You are probably hurt now. Maybe you are angry with me. Perhaps you are disappointed with me. You might not want to hear from me or see me.

I don't know. But even if you did, I understand.

However, I want you to know that, all this while I don't regret liking you and I appreciate your feelings as well. It’s a pity that it didn't work out. But I hope that one day you can come to understand the reason of my action.

I wish that someday you’ll find someone who deserves you better than me. Here, all the best to you.

I have no idea when you will be reading this post. I can understand if you probably don't want to read my blog at all.

But, I still want to thank you for your feelings and for respecting my decision.

Yeah, it's time to move on

2008-11-20T02:44:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's like that you said, it's time to change.

i know at times I'm being immature, ignorant and naive. Sometimes i don't realized i have done something wrong as well. And quite often I'll try to put the blame on someone or something else. I'm sorry for behaving this way. Because i feel that it is not easy to stand up and face yourself. A lot of courage is needed. And this is where sorry doesn't play a role at all. It all depends on you, your choice, to make a difference, to make a change and to make it better.

Even though I'm just going through the process of early adulthood, I am already feel it's hard to be an adult. So many decisions, responsibilities, commitments and burdens. Every choice comes with a price. And it's the price where you don't have a say in the value or amount.

Honestly speaking, it's difficult to grow up. And reality is cruel in some ways.

But i'll learn. Starting from now, taking one step at a time, i'll slowly learn to be an adult. I'll change to be a better person. And i hope the same for you.

Lastly, I don't regret that i made this decision. I'll carry this experience with me for life.

***

A large thank you to all my family and friends for the support and advices.

*bows*

I feel so.....

2008-11-19T11:34:00.007+08:00

I feel very tired already. Because i feel that no matter how hard i tried to tell you, to explain, you just don't get it.

I may not show that i look irritate, look upset but does not mean i don't feel anything at all. I just feel that it's quite sad that things ended this way even though i try my best to make it end as well as possible. But it didn't work work. It backfired instead.

Fine, it's okay you hate me now. You can say whatever you want but you shouldn't say that I'm not serious in this. I think a lot before i come to this decision. How do you think i would feel? Do you think it's fair that i drag this trial on and hurt you and i more later? How can you say that I'm not serious? How can you even say that? i tried my best to tell you about the problems. I tried my hardest to explain.

But you just don't get it. Do you think it's easy for me? Let's swap roles then. Why don't you be me and i be you? Try it.

Communication problem is not a small thing. If you cant really get the message of what each other is saying..then what's the point?

And it's not about language! It's never about the language. I don't condemn you for your language. Why do you think I'll speak to you in Chinese? Because i know you'll be more comfortable using Chinese to communicate. That's why i used Chinese even though I'm not very fluent in it but i still use it because it makes the communication easier for the both of us. Communication is both ways! If it's one way working then it will never work out.

Well...I'm sorry to say i come from a English speaking family who don't know a damn written Chinese word. I'm sorry for that okay! But even if i come from a English speaking background do you think i would STOOP SO DAMN LOW TO CONDEMN YOU BECAUSE OF YOUR ENGLISH?! If i were to condemn, would i tell you what's wrong with your outline and wait for you to change it? If i were soooo concern i would have just take it and correct it myself without telling you! And why would i want a break up because of this damn thing?! How is it fair for me?

I need space. I told you I'll give you space and you'll give me space. We agreed on this. I can understand that you are being concern...i know you care. Okay i apologize, it's my problem because i feel that when a concern becomes too much, i cant handle.

You said i didn't tell you about the mistake. Okay, that is my mistake. But I want to. In fact i want to tell you right in the face. But I'm not you who can just say out what you don't like. To me, I cant do that. How would you feel if i keep telling you cant do this, you cant do that? Oh well, I will tolerate you. I will tolerate you until i caused myself pain. But do you know that? Obviously you don't. Because you don't understand me at all.

Can you imagine all this "you are not serious, you are just giving excuses" coming out from you who said that u liked me. CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT AM I FEELING NOW?

How can you say like tat? What is this? I'm asking you. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?

Up to this point i got nothing to say anymore. In fact i don't know what to say at all because almost everything i said had somehow been rejected, misinterpreted and backfired.

I am seriously saddened by how things ended.

i have mood swings. Frequently.

2008-11-16T13:02:00.005+08:00

Yeap. As the title said, i have mood swings. Lots of them. Anytime. Anywhere.

Sometimes i feel annoyed, sometimes i feel naughty, sometimes i feel moody, sometimes i feel no mood, sometimes i am angry, sometimes i am happy, sometimes i feel relaxed and sometimes, just some of those times, i prefer to be left alone.

All this can happen in one day or can even last through the week itself. And that was intensified if it's that time of the month again. It all depends on what was said, done and happen. Occasionally it could be the environment or weather. At times it could be the surroundings. Sometimes nothing is done and i still have mood swings.

That is why my mood is pretty unpredictable. I could be smiling at you for a minute, the next second i could be barking at you like a mad dog.

*sigh*

I'm feeling all gloomy again.

This blog is written for myself. It's not easy to open up and write, knowing that there will people who are reading it. And sometimes I'm grateful that there are people who read and then didn't ask any questions about it. I like my privacy. Seriously. If there is something i would like to tell you, i would. Thank you.

"M" and "I". The purrrfect pair.

2008-11-15T20:26:00.003+08:00

After a relaxing outing and some pestering by the unshakable "I" bout two days ago, thinking i can finally enjoyed the full purpose of an weekend, "M" decided to drop a large meaningless bomb on us by destroying our "after submitting report" happiness through the usage of one word "problems".

This is the actual sentence by the way.

"T1,2 and 5 please take back your reports. Got some problems."

You must be thinking what problems right? Well, apparently the problems carried such weight that all of us are willing to drop a kick or two right into his face.

Here are a list of problems detected by him :

Main hard cover template (where we wrote our names) has the wrong subject code.
Cover pages titles are not centred.
Times New Roman fonts are unacceptable.
Mock screens are too small and the labels are too big.
Flow chart - the lines are not really connected.

Notes:

(1) The code that he gave was initially wrong. But managed to correct it except for the shadowy effect. Ask him bout that and he reply "tak apa, tak apa." And here he was circling it with a apa apa pen.

(2) It must be directly in the middle where you can strike a bull's eye with a dart. Even a little up like 0.5mm is not acceptable.

(3) This i can explain. We didnt use times new roman! We used Imprint MT shadow! And he accused us of using TNR. Isnt he an expert in fonts? I can even prove to him using soft copy!

(4) Okay. Maybe it was a little too small. But then again, you can just provide some guidelines or something. However you didnt. So we might as well do our own thing. And here you are complaining it was too small or too big when you didnt say anything in the first place!

(5) Frankie's flow chart was circled with a red pen for a stupidly tiny weeny mistake. The lines are only 0.1 or 0.2 mm from connecting the boxes. Must you be so calculative? It's not like if you're showing it to a minister or something.

So to summarize everything, if you have any of those suspicious red marks in your report, you have to reprint and rebind again. And that's another several dollars for it.

And didnt he say before once he rejects our project and that's it? There's no correction you can do? Then why is he asking us to take back and correct it?

It's simple. He's contradicting himself. Nope, i think i should use he is hypo-contradicting himself. There. It sounds better isnt it?

Just a random note, i think "I" and "M" will make a good pair. You see, both have some similarities which i think are very rare. Both are muka tembok and lived in a some kind of "tak tahu malu" fantasy.

"I" is more into the annoying side by repeating asking for your work no matter how busy or how late it is. On the other hand, "m" is more on the authoritive side by taking your work in his hands and modify till it was degraded.

And people, i'm proud to say, i found another two people who are qualified for the title of "hypo-contradicting." Yeap. You have probably guessed it. Congratulations to "I" and "M" for earning the titles with lotsa lotsa hard work effort in which us, the viewers can even detect in our skin.

The reason for this is because, we recently found out that our seniors got relatively low marks with the highest is at 25/30. The second highest is only at 23/30. And both are modify 100% by "M". And yet he give such low marks. (=_=)

As for "I", the just reference technique is proven to be undefeatable. Just by using that phrase, an agreement can be achieved in a most forceful way. However, this cannot be beaten by the ultimate usage of copy, modify, combine and paste. And this "i" claims that it was under the just reference technique. Impressive right people?

That is why, here am i, blogging away this award than giving to them personally.

And so ladies and gentlemen, i present to you the golden pair of the semester :

"I" and "M"

Thanks for all the trouble and incovenience that you caused. Just to let you know. I dont appreciate it one bit.

Byebye~

***

P/S : This particular post is not directed at anyone. If you are offended, i wont apologize. I have the freedom of speech after all. Thank you very much.

Another date with jo

2008-11-15T02:01:00.004+08:00

Finally. Yeah finally gal. We managed to hang out on thursday despite mounts of mid term and assignment. Hooray for both of us~!

Went to Midvalley with jojo. Met a really nice taxi driver. Kononnya he was working in the airlines field for some time. He speaks mandarin, Hokkien, Cantonese and English to us. Well, we couldnt really get the former three as his tone was slightly off. And he was an indian. So can consider pretty impressive. So we reached mv with a fee of RM7.60. But he charged us with RM7.

0.0

Seriously, i was very surprise. This is the first taxi driver who had charged me less. *whistle*
Perhaps, there's still hope for Malaysia's taxi drivers after all.

After that, we proceeded to have our sushi together at sushi zanmai. As expected, the place was full to the brim and without much choice we opted for the table which was far away from the converyer belt. Nevertheless, it's one of those rare times when you make full use of the waitresses and waiters.

*evil laugh*

We ordered salmon sashimi, tempura moriwase, soft shell crab maki, inari tuna salad, ebikko, kani mayo, chuka lidako, seasoned scallop wings (forgot the name), vanilla daifuku and goma ice cream.

Sorry no pictures because i'm always remember to take photos after i finished my meal.

(=_=)

Anyway, the food was really fresh and marvelous. Especially the sashimi. It's fatty (can see the white colour line clearly) and thickly slice. Somehow it brought a very horrible memory as i was comparing this sashimi to the sushi's king sashimi which awfully taste like frozen fish cake. I love the goma ice cream (black sesame) too! It was really powdery and rich. Just like when you are savoring a bowl of black sesame "tong sui"!

(Shit...i make myself hungry again. Haiz)

The bill come up to about Rm84 . But with great company and great food, it's worth it. Besides, i had been sushi deprived for a few months now which makes it more reasonable for me to spend more? Haha.

After lunch, headed to the cinema cause we're catching madagascar at five. Initially wanted to get the 2.45 but after checking online, it's fully booked (dont ppl have to work?) and upon reaching there on the spot was quite late already. So yeah, bought the 5 pm ticket eventually.

Saw some really awesome, funny animation trailers in the cinema. There's ice age 3 coming out and also a never heard before "aliens vs monsters" that look pretty good. But then again, trailers always looked good. But i'll be waiting for ice age 3 though. I like the acorn lover. It was such a cute guy. ^^

Overall, the movie was pretty okay. But i got a little bored halfway through the show. Yeah, it was funny alright, but not to the point i have tears streaming from my eyes due to extreme laughter. I just feel the jokes have a bit of redundance.

After movie, it's too jam to take a bus home. So we stayed for dinner and had ramen this time. Oh yes that's another type of japanese food. It's been a traditon to us already. Whenever, jojo and i hang out, we'll opt for japanese food without question unless we get bored of it (i doubt it) or we are really really broke ( we will just cancel the outing and go another day).

***

p/s : jojo, i had a great time. Thanks for the company and juicy talks. ^^v

The long road of uncertainty

2008-11-09T11:17:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why i suddenly feel so emotional.

Am i ready for this?

Will i able to handle it?

Maybe...it's like what he said...

I think too much

It made my day. Seriously.

2008-11-08T20:59:00.007+08:00

Woke up this morning feeling all nervous already. Hands and feet are ice cold. And my heart nearly burst out of my chest. Suppose to wake up at about 7.30 to practice. But delay due to some rolling on bed.

First thing to do is to practice. I didn't even brush my teeth yet (don't give me that look. I did eventually). See what nervousness can do to you? You will go out of the way of your usual routine. Well at least, that's what happen to me. Tested my slides on windows xp and it works perfectly. Made some adjustment and off to practice again.

Last night's result after practicing :

8-9 mins

This morning's result :

7-8 mins

0.0

Holy. I must be speeding off like a bullet train before i even realized it. A note to self : speak slower. Opps. Correction. I should say, go slow but don't forget your points.

But i should have known. It turned out to be quite the opposite. I talked fast and forget some of my points. Paused stupidly for a several seconds before proceeding to the next point. Like a car have to brake a few times because of the stupid traffic jam.

I have to hit the emergency slow down button when Jasz and Frankie made me realized that I've been talking too fast. I was already in the 4th point when it was only on the 6th minute.

So i try my best to slow down in which i think was pretty successful. I was surprised because usually going slow to me during presentation is like encouraging me to speak faster and faster.

But in the end, i managed to pull off pretty well except for the unplanned pauses and forgotten points along the way. Even though i rehearsed and rehearsed i still forgot. I managed to drag it until it was 8.30 mins. Yay!!!

Eh damn tension okay. When i looked at Mr Kuru, he was leaning back against his chair, arms folded and looking at me as though i just killed a kitten. Dont tell me i just strike the jackpot of death.

But, surprisingly his comments are:

"it was an impressive speech. Although there are frequent pauses in between but it was a very well done presentation"

And that MADE my day.

Wheeeee~~~~~~

Terrification

2008-11-07T16:14:00.002+08:00

Again, another word added in the collection of booboo's most bizarre-weird-combination English words collection.

***

My heart is beating fast. My hands are sweaty and my head is filled with doubts. My emotions are wavered and i just cant wait for the day to be over tomorrow.

Will i manage to do well?

What if i forgot the points?

What if i just gaped like a fish?

What if my points arent good?

What if i couldnt START at all?

What if i get stuck halfway?

What if...

So many what ifs....so little assurance.

I think i should stopped complaining and get back to practice.

No point worrying bout the inevitable.

Practice girl, practice.....

Macky and xp not "gam key"

2008-11-07T03:14:00.003+08:00

Now I'm seriously suspecting Macky is a defect machine. Know why? It restarted by itself once in a while when it's too heaty.

After restarted, a message box appear saying that mac OS x quit unexpectedly. Brought it back to apple shop and one of the workers told me it's the heating problem.

Like hello?

Mac OS quit unexpectedly is a heating problem?

I surf the net and found out it was actually kernel panic, a state where the computer doesn't recognize a new program being installed in it. I don't care. I think i'll go ask for a new one. This macky is not even 6 months old.

Isnt Mac suppose to be quite reliable? Some chaplang computer also can tahan the heat but why it cant?!

Cis!

****

Don't say bout macky already. Even my windows xp side is giving me a hell of problem. It has the blue screen of death. Okay i know it sounds weird. But that's what they said on the net. You try to google and see then you know lah.

Anyway why this have to happen? Especially in my busiest moment.

Sheesh, lucky macky got compatible program for word and powerpoint if not then i have to use the troublesome way of transfering my files into another computer and do it there.

*Sigh*

Realization

2008-11-05T18:38:00.006+08:00

I realized that I've been taking my language for granted.

I never truly understand how hard is it to..... (suddenly i forgot what I'm going to say =_=)

Anyway i got a feeling that if i don't step up, I'm just going to lose out.

***

Happie Birthday Daniel =)

***

Yeah, yeah i know it's an easy post so shut up.

LOL.

Super lame post

2008-11-04T02:24:00.002+08:00

WARNING !!!!

Seriously, i dunno whether it's funny or i'm stunned.

It's so damn weird.

Well maybe, I'm the weird one. Randomly posting up images like that.

But but but don't you think it's pretty cute?

=p

i should have known

2008-11-02T14:02:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i don't know the reason.

I don't know why am i feeling so scared.

I don't know why am i feeling insecure.

I don't know why i refuse to admit.

I don't know why i deny.

I don't know why am i feeling emotional, confuse, unsure, fear, insecure, lack of confidence.

Like the whirlpool, as complicated as that.

Is this how it's suppose to be?

i'm not sure am i the only one feeling like this.

But now,

I can say,

I finally found the answer.

hypocontradicting

2008-11-01T18:41:00.003+08:00

Again, i know there is no such word. This is just something i made up. In case you're wondering what the hell does it mean, it's actually

hypocrite + contradicting = hypocontradicting.

It pretty sums up what I've been doing now. Okay, i mean even before that. I think 99% of it serves me right because i tend to always say the opposite and now i can only say 2 words to myself which are :

padan muka

Karma people, karma.

It really happens.

Now it's karma-hypocontradicting.

*Sigh*

T_T

It's complicated

2008-10-30T00:04:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i didnt know my ignorance can lead to so many things happening. And the most funny things is it proceeded stage by stage and i didnt even notice until someone told me.

I haven got a clue on how it started in the first place also.

(=_=)

But can you really blame me? I really got no experience when it comes to relationships. Seriously.

Honestly speaking loh, i still dont really know how things become like this.

Anyway, i just glad that it's over and it's a weird weird matter to be exact.

Haiya, i dont know anymore lah

***

booboo is extremely terrified of persuasive speech

Thirsty?

2008-10-26T21:47:00.004+08:00

"Ask For More"

***

Thoughts:

Er, i'm not sure whether you have heard of this, but i find the flavours very er...erhm...what's the word? ah! disturbing.

If you are telling me, it's an isotonic drink then i'll understand the colour. But hello? It's pepsi + yogurt. So should it taste as gassy as pepsi or should it be as sour as yogurt?

As for the ice cucumber ( cucumber?!), welllllll, i'm not sure if i would like to try it. Is it my imagination or is pepsi learning towards producing health drinks seeing that there's an addition of yogurt and cucumber? But then again it's still carbonated so no? Hmmmm.....tricky.

By the way, this drink is only available in Japan i think and i'm not sure when it's coming over to Malaysia.

Seriously, Japanese people never ceased to amaze me. They always come up with weird but fantastic stuff (not talking bout the drink). I'm not surprise if they manage to produce a mushroom flavour pepsi in future.

Hahahahahahahaha

***

All pic belongs to akihabara.com

impromptulicius

2008-10-25T16:33:00.005+08:00

Yes, i pretty aware that there is no such word. It is something that i add on just to adjust to the mood that I'm currently feeling.

Been feeling tired thanks to the energy consuming morning session. All the anxiety, nervousness, edginess really took the toll on me even though i only feel the aftermath now. Like i had predicted, although i keep telling myself i can do it, but i still make mistakes...oops correction i should say i make a lot of mistakes.

You see that's the thing that happened to me when i'm impromptu-ing. I never seemed to use the correct words at the right time. And my points just repeat and repeat. Plus with all the un-planned pauses.

*Sigh*

Another typical case of my mouth working faster than my brain.

*sob sob*

But, i dont feel that nervous already when i'm talking infront. Okay maybe a little bit. I just hope my next speech will be more natural, fluent and mistakes free. I think i'm able to survive this course right? Right. Nowwwwwww i need some ideas for my next speech.

Can someone spray me with some topic powder?

***

Okay, i'm not sure why i'm going to blog bout this. But i feel the need to. I pretty aware that my language usage is sometimes er...not very polite. Then again, this is my blog. So i can write anything that i want. Which is why i'm debating on whether to let my father knows bout my current blog or not ( he is asking for my url btw).

You see, he is very serious bout the language. So i'm not entirely sure how he'll accept my english in which i have corrupted, modify and edited. Two pretty good examples, are the wide usage of manglish and almost a variety of crude languages or simply put "bad words"

So now, i'm in dilemma.

........

........

........

Oh yes, i am.

***

p/s:

dear quirky,

Yes, i still remember you. You're my sister's friend. I'm not sure when you have started reading my blog. I just only noticed yesterday that you left a comment on one of my posts. I'm sorry to give a late reply and I seriously didnt think someone will browse through my archive.

Anyway thanks for dropping by and i love your hand made cards. They are soooooo lovely!!! ^^

Have a nice day =)